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fanfiction-funtime · 3 years ago

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Spritefather and Selene Interaction

A fan drabble for @clouds-rambles, I hope I characterized Selene right

Without much prompting it's a tad hard to write like this, but I hope it works.

Also I hope you don't mind me mentioning Cael amnesia anon.

(Selene was hanging out with Cael when Venti makes trouble, bringing the night to a close)

(Selene pov)

Yet again, I had to drag Cael's boyfriend out of the bar. This time because he thought someone was insulting his father and punched them, but he was just talking about some mythological person called 'Spritefather'.

I haven't thought about that story in a long time, not since I was a kid. Something about him being able to "use all elements" or something and how he "taught Barbados about freedom", maybe I'll ask Lisa about it.

"Excuse me madam, my father needs to speak to that man you're carrying. Please, hand him to me." I heard a voice from behind me say, the accent was a thick Schneznayan one.

I turned around to meet the person, a woman in an outfit that wouldn't look out of place in a family portrait of old Schneznayan nobility, they also held a vision.

A cryo vision.

I three Venti into a hay pile and summoned my spear, "your a pretty bad liar, LA SIGNORA!"

"No wait! You've got it all w-" I jabbed at her with my spear, using conduct to increase it's power, "I said wait!-"

"I don't bargain with people who hurt my friends!" Hehe, that was a cool line, nice one Selene.

"W-WHAT!? HOW DARE YOU INSINUATE THAT I WOULD HURT MY OWN BROTHER!" The woman gasped and pointed behind me.

I looked back and saw an abyss mage sneaking away with Venti.

"HEY! THAT'S MY BROTHER/BEST FRIEND'S BOYFRIEND!"

The mage noticed and bolted away. We chased it all the way to star conch cliff, where it threw Venti over the edge.

"Haha! Do your worst human! I have already completed my mission! Now without your precious archon, mondstadt will-!"

A tornado of water sprouted up from the sea, then froze in place. From the newly formed spiral of ice rose a cloaked man, and around him were 6 wisps of every element but cryo.

The mage turned around, and were it not for the dendro tendril crushing it's windpipe they would have screamed in horror.

"First you threaten to kill my son," the cloaked man stepped off the spire, the air polarizing itself with electro to form a step, "then you kidnap him while my daughter is trying to retrieve him," another step, this time the air simply pushes him up to form a step, "and now you have followed through on that threat. It tried to," the man took one last, powerful step, to which a geo platform met his feet and lifted him to the hanging abyss mage, "how truly foolish must you be."

He man then lit the tendril on fire, burning the mage like a furby in a campfire.

The man lowered himself down, Venti in his arms, and said, "I'm sorry Barbados, I should have gone to get you myself. Viktoria, what happened?"

Then he noticed me.

"EEEEP!" He shouted as he dropped Venti with a thud.

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(3rd person limited, Spritefather pov)

'Oh celestia, a person! No no, keep it together. You love interacting with humans in a controlled manner. This is just as controlled, just...a suprise.' Spritefather thought.

"By Barbados' hairy nostrils! You're the Spritefather!" The human Selene shouted.

Spritefather straightened himself out and cleared his throat, "y-yes, I am. But I am not 'the' Spritefather, I'm just Spritefather. Saying 'the Spritefather' is like calling you 'the Selene'. But now isn't the time for such trivial bickerings," Spritefather gave a gentlemanly bow, "thank you for attempting to rescue my eldest child, and for taking him home everytime he indulges a bit to much on vices."

Viktoria facepalmed, "dad! They aren't supposed to know that!"

"Well why not? They're friends with him, and best friends with his boyfriend. Which by the way I STILL need to meet-" he noticed Selene was seeming kind if pale, "you ok?"

*thud*

"Oh dear."

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(3rd person omniscient pov)

(There's no good point to explain this, but they're in a serenitea pot)

Selene woke up in a very confused state, and on a cloaked woman's lap.

"Please do not be alarmed, neither me nor my daughter did anything to you." The woman said.

Selene, in response, punched the woman and scrambled away, "who the abyss are you!?"

"Well I'm not particularly loved by celestia but I'd hardly say I'm abyssal.."

"Father, people here are not as accustomed to the divine as Liyue or Inazuma." The woman from before, who Selene thought was La Signora, said as she approached them with some tea.

"Wait, fa-no, no. Don't do that Selene, it's rude."

The cloaked woman shook her hands to dismiss Selene's concern, "it's fine, however I thank you for your accepting nature. Though it is to be excepted given your personal identity."

"How do you know me?"

"Heh, have you forgotten already? Though I suppose the change in form is not common among you humans. And nonexistent in the way me and the wisps can do."

The woman got up and started twirling, then surrounded themself in elemental power, and when it cleared stood the cloaked man Selene saw in her dream...

*wait*

"That wasn't a dream...holy shit that wasn't a dream! You're the Spritefather-I mean-you're Spritefather! Your real!"

"Indeed I am. I would think everyone in mondstadt believes I'm real, but atleast that leaves less for that misconception."

"What misconception?"

"Ask Barbados, shouldn't be too hard since you two are close."

"Barba-wait Venti is actually Barbados!?

"Oh dear I'm making this worse."

The still unnamed woman sighed and shook her head, "how about we focus on why my dad decided to be a woman? Surely that would be a far more easy thing to understand."

"It's because she likes women, and I don't blame her. World cold and hard, titty warm and soft."

"Dad who taught you that!?"

"You do realize I can hear the lives of all in my home yes?"

"I guess I'm at fault." Selene laughed.

"I will have my revenge upon you for this." The woman responded.

Spritefather chuckled, "oh? And how about you get your revenge over a date. Anastasia."

"F-FATHER!"

"What? She's single, friends to someone who can teach her proper tea ceremonies, and uh....they have....hmmm..." Spritefather was trying to think if what he could say to convince his daughter, "look I just want to see grand kids!"

"FATHER"

"K-KIDS!?"

"Look I'm pushing fifty million! If one of you doesn't get me kids in the next ten million years I'm going to grow grey hair!"

Anastasia starts forming an ice throwing knife, "REBEL'S-"

"Papa, what happen?" Came a childish voice.

Selene gasped, they were looking at probably the cutest thing EVER!

"Oh my ARCHONS! IS THAT A PYROSPRITE!?"

"Yes that's my child Flameo-"

Selene, already having picked up the the baby, "they're so CUTE!"

They hugged the little flame close to their face and nuzzled them, to which Flameo quickly responded to with their own.

"Smell like..." they thought for a moment, "big Bro Bardos!" They flew around Selene excitedly, "friend!"

Spritefather sighed, "Oh dear, now the rest will be coming out. And I just got them to sleep aswell."

It wasn't long before Selene was surrounded by six Sprites.

The Electrosprite landed on her vision and started vibrating happily.

The Geosprite asked, "are you strong!? I think I could be you!"

"Oh I'm sure you could." Selene said to appease the little Sprite as she chuckled chuckled.

The Anemosprite and Pyrosprite flew around her head like children.

The Hydrosprite was inspecting her clothes, "how utterly bourgeois, has my Brother and father been teaching you how to dress? Honestly, the people of mondstadt should learn from the reconnaissance captain of the knights. Now there's a woman who knows how to dress."

"Oh you mean Eula?"

"You know her?"

"Oh yeah, she's invites me to tea every now and then."

"SHE...invites....YOU...out for TEA!?-"

Anastasia puts her hand over the Hydrosprite and tries to hold her back

"Sorry about that," the woman replied, "kids and their crushes."

(Agua, muffled: I'M SIXTEENTH HUNDRED YEARS OLD!)

"Ha-haaa...."

Selene couldn't respond to that as they felt a prick in her spine, causing them to yelp.

A Dendrodsprite slinkied up her back and put it's head on her shoulder, "just sampling...never seen blood like yours...so intertwined with the...divine....yet so distan-"

Spritefather picked up his child, "please forgive Leafy, they're in their...adventurous stage. And their adventure is to learn things. Often things that involve pins and needles."

This was going to be a looong night

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The next day, Vanessa's tree

Selene yawns and falls on the statue, Venti doing the same. The difference between them is one is hungover and waiting for his boyfriend to take him home after the fifth assassination attempt this week, the other has to deal with the consequences of being loved by children and being there to try and stop the most recent assassination

"Holy shit....this hang over....I thought Decrabain's hailstorms were bad..."

"You shouldn't try watching after Leafy.....but I think half the pains are from Agua's jealousy bites......"

"You think that's bad?.....you should have seen them when they realized Cael and I....were dating....."

"...archons I hope I was never like that as a kid...."

"Oh cherry up you two!" Spritefather said, a bit too loud for the two, "it's a new day and-"

Venti hit his father with a clump of grass using anemo

"YOUNG MAN!-

"Ohheythere'sCaelgottagobye!" The archon said as he ran off.

Spritefather sighed, "he's always like that, running from responsibilities. But he always means up when it counts, so I can only say I'm proud of the man he's become," he thought for a moment, "except for when he turns into a woman for whatever reason, then I'm proud of the woman she's become...you know, after being around single form life for so long stuff like that feels so strange. I mean you humans are born with one form and cant naturally change it. But if you feel it's wrong you'll go through so much trouble just to get close to what us shape changers can get. While to humans it is inspiring purely because of the person's determination to take the form they so deserve, that they were truly meant to have. But for me it's so much more! The human spirit and will is oh so inspiring, but the amount humans go through! So much money, so much time, and in many places simply enduring life! Why even I couldn't get the...uh...transphobia is it?...out of Inazuma!Terribly sorry human language changes so much. Oh and on language! To think that I was there when the first cave man was trying to mimic the grunts of the gods, only to make something so much superior to them to the point that the gods copied THEM! And speaking of copies have you ever heard of the time Dainsleif-" he paused as he saw Selene's bored face, "sorry. One little thing and I start ranting and rave...no, it's info dumping. And I should thank you humans for making that term, and all the other wonder words you've made, and the medical advances. They've helped me understand myself....ah but look at me, rambling on again. You know what? For entertaining my kids the whole night, and listening to an old man's ramblings, I'll give you a boon. Anything you want, if I can get it you shall have it."

Selene thought for a moment. She thought about asking him to bring back her father, but they knew he couldn't raise the dead. She even thought...of her mother, to see her again, but they knew that it wouldn't help. A selfish part of her even wanted someway to reignite her's and Rosaria's relationship, after all that part of her life was, but she knew it would be wrong and that they both agree they just didn't work.

Perhaps just ask for mora? She did need some for a good night's rest, but that felt wasteful. What was one night's rest for what could be a lifetime of amazing power. But maybe it would be wrong to ask for something like power. Ah! She's got it!

"How about a spear? A really powerful one that compliments my powers perfectly! Oh! And make it look really cool!"

Spritefather blinked, then laughed, "well, that's rather simple isn't it? So amazing you humans. You expect them to make something big and/or selfish, like taking control of a country, or killing someone. Yet never once has one of my boons been used for anything bad. Even when they're selfish. Like one time I met a very selfish person who I granted a boon, and all he did with it was ask me to make sure the kids of Inazuma were never hungry. Ah, now that. That was ranting, sorry." Spritefather walked over to the statue's base and knocked three times, "hello Vanessa. It's been a while since I last called you, but I was hoping you could give me a hand? And perhaps a very sturdy branch off your tree?"

"Uhhh-"

A light shown down from the heavens and the ground shook, causing a skeletal hand to rise from the depths.

Selene would have screeched if she weren't so tired, "I'd prefer my weapon to be less...body part-sy."

"Nonsense! Everyone knows that bones make the best weapons! You know why it's called a prototype rancor?! BECAUSE NOONE WANTS TO ACCEPT THAT THE PERFECTED VERSION I, THE INVENTOR, MADE INCLUDES THE SHINBONES OF MITSCHURLS! YOU EVER SEEN A-*ahem*-sorry, rambling."

As he was ranting, a branch handed Spritefather a sturdy branch from the tree.

"Perfect, now a bit of magic and-" the two items blew up in Spritefather's face before reforming into a purple and black spear that ended in a feathery sleeve like pattern that was attached to a sharp blade that looked very much like a hand made into a spear blade. Mainly because it was.

A brilliant light shone down on the Spritefather as he floated up and presented the spear to Selene(mumbled: thanks Venessa)

"SELENE OF MONDSTADT!"

His voice became that of s god's, filled with power and compassion, booming across windrise.

"YOU HAVE SPOKEN YOUR WISH, AND BY MY HONOR AS THE ENTERNAL FATHER, I AM DUTY BOUND TO GRANT IT!"

He leans imup to Selene and whispered to her, "do you like the eternal father moniker? I thought it up myself."

"Oh yeah, 10/10, really keeping with the Inazuman background."

"Thanks."

"TAKE YOUR GRAND BLADE, AND GO FORTH TO CARVE THROWS DESTINY AND TILL YOUR OWN FUTURE!"

Selene took the spear, "uh...thanks?"

"Oh your very welcome. By the way how was that delivery? I've been working on the whole 'I am a powerful being' delivery for a few centuries."

"A bit hard to understand, but overall gets the vibe across. Maybe 8/10? Low seven probably."

"Yeah, I kind of expected that. Wonder how else I could get that effect, you know without the whole can't understand thing."

"Well, I've got teo other immortals to meet. Ones I need to question."

"Ah yes, I'm sure Cael and Barbados have much to answer for to you."

"Yes they do. I don't suppose 'see you around' would be appropriate here?"

"On a sense? It's appropriate. After all I'm your friend now aswell, and I prefer a life without isolation. So...see you round?"

"Sure, see you around."

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Admittedly didn't know how to end this. I like it but I'm a tad worried I made it to focused on my character and didn't give Selene enough attention.

Regardless I hope you enjoyed it cloud! I really tried to get Selene right. And sorry it took so long, sleep kept getting messed up, and then covid shot+forgetting to hydrate kicked my ass.

(Tagging: @storytravelled, @golden-wingseos, and @clouds-rambles)

#genshin #genshin impact #Spritefather #genshin oc #venti #genshin fanfic #genshin fan character

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vajranam · 4 years ago

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What Is Nature Of Mind?

What is the nature of the mind?

Garchen Rinpoche

Milarepa was asked by Nyama Paldarbum, "What is the nature of the mind?"

Milarepa replied and explained its basis abides like space and it is boundless as the sky without center or edge The purpose of practice is to realise the two types of bodhicitta. Our mind is like muddy water. The mind of Buddhas is like clear water. Clear water shares the same nature as muddy water. We need to practice to let the mud clear. When the mind is liberated from concepts, it is empty and pristine and it abides like space. This is what we need to understand from our practice. The basis of mind is the same in Buddhas and sentient beings. It is clear and uncontrived. But we add contrivances to it, like adding mud to water.

The basis abides like space. Buddhas abide in the dharmakaya. Sentient beings are like muddy water and experience suffering. But there is a path to purify our obscurations. This practice is staying in the moment where past thoughts have ceased and future thoughts have not yet arisen. This state is a complete, vast openness. There is no grasping to thoughts as they arise. Even as they do arise, they cannot do any harm, as they then just cease. So we should remain in that state.

What does contrived or fabricated mean? Look at the mind. The one who knows thoughts is our own awareness. As thoughts arise they immediately dissipate. That is great openness. But if we follow thoughts along, then our mind is obscured and becomes contrived or fabricated. As soon as we hold onto a thought like anger, the mind becomes obscured. So we should remain in a state of mindful awareness. As a result one will immediately recognise thoughts as they arise and not grasp at them. Since the cause is uncontrived, so will be the result, and our mind will be purified. This is the uncontrived state of mahamudra.

What does mahamudra mean? The first word is "chag." It represents the unsurpassed qualities of the Buddha. Where is the Buddha? You cannot find the Buddha outside, only inside. It is the mind's unity of clarity and emptiness. We give this mind the name of Buddha. "Chag" means devotion to my mind, which has the nature of Buddha. "Gya chenpo" mean vast and having no center or edge. It must be seen for oneself. It is inexpressible, like a mute person eating molasses. The nature of mind cannot be expressed. "Gya chenpo" means it encompasses all phenomena of samsara and nirvana. There are infinite Buddhas and sentient beings. Even only considering this world system, the particles of dust in it are beyond count. All this is only mind.

The mind comes from emptiness and dissolves back to emptiness, like water freezing as ice and melting again. Having realised the meaning of mahamudra, one gains liberation from samsara. All phenomena are empty of self nature. Realising this, one does not grasp at them. One does not grasp at melting ice, realising it is nothing but water. All phenomena are empty of self nature abiding just like space. When one has realised the nature of mind, one will be liberated from samsara.

So she then asked Milarepa., "What appears in your mind?"

Milarepa used the analogy of the sun shining in a cloudless sky.

She then asked Milarepa, "When you meditate, what is the ultimate result?"

He replied that one sees that all phenomena of samsara are without intrinsic reality and one does not grasp to either samsara or nirvana. In that state of non-distraction, there is no reference point. The view is without hope and fear. The only wish is that all beings may attain Buddhahood. There is no fear of suffering, as all phenomena are seen as empty.

So he asks her, "Do you want this practice?"

She gave rise to devotion to Milarepa, and asked him to be her teacher.

Worldly beings are unaware of the faults of unvirtuous actions and ignorant of the benefits of virtuous actions. They see what leads to suffering as desirable and what leads to happiness as undesirable. This is a corrupt view. It is like a cloudy day when you cannot see the sun shine. Or a snowy winter when you cannot see the flowers in the meadow. Similarly, the mind is obscured and we cannot see it.

Nyama Paldarbum confessed her wrong doing and said, "As the result of wrong doing in previous lives, I was born as a girl who is no better than a servant. I have never given a thought to impermanence and death. So now I will prepare for death and become your disciple."

Milarepa replied, "I will teach you the dharma. But that is difficult. If praised, you become proud, and if criticised, you become angry.. But since you ask, I will teach you." So the message is do not spend so much time putting on make up and cleaning yourself. Instead, you should clean your mind. Milarepa said, do not turn your mind to samsaric friends, turn your mind to your teacher. Do not fixate on this life, caring for your body. Be generous with your possessions instead of being stingy. When you are young, it is hard to practice the dharma. The young are like beautiful peacocks. They are proud of their appearance and do not wish to practice. With this pride, love and compassion cannot arise. We need to apply an antidote to pride and this antidote is devotion. She replied, "Please do not scold me. I really want to practice the dharma, but never had the chance."

Milarepa replied, "You may not have time to practice, but will you have time to die? This life is very short compared to all your future lives. You must prepare for all your future lives. Do you know what you will eat then?" The preparation for all your future lives is generosity in this present life. Stinginess is your true enemy and you should eliminate it. Normally we think of only ourselves. As a result we will be reborn as a hungry ghost. So we need to practice generosity for our future lives.

In this life there is the light of the sun and the moon. But in the bardo there is none. Mediate on luminosity as a preparation for the bardo. Some people may think that they have nothing to give, but that is not right. If one has much, one should give that. But if one has nothing, one can give the protection of life and give the dharma by reciting "om mani padme hum." The prayer wheel I turn continuously is turning in prayers for all sentient beings. So one can always give.

When we go to the next life, we will take no company and no friends. Who will we take when we go to the bardo alone? When we do deity practice, the deity will accompany us in the bardo. Our obstructors will be those who are now dear to us. They create problems when we are alive and cannot help us when we are die. Of course, we should be kind to them. But only the yidam deity we have meditated on will accompany us in the bardo.

The meditation on the yidam deity benefits us in this life as well. I get many calls about people's problems. I always tell people to meditate on Tara. When the mind is suffering it is obscured by self grasping. At this time we need to visualise the yidam as clear as an image in the mirror. If we do this, our mind will become clear and pure. If you recite the mantra without love and compassion, there will be some benefit. But we should transform ourselves completely into the deity, including their love and compassion. If we do this there will be great benefit for this life as well as for future lives.

The future life seems very far away. How should we prepare for it? We should prepare ourselves for it with diligence. When we have a spare moment we should practice or visualise the deity. It is like a butter lamp. When the butter is exhausted it will not burn any more. If we practice, when our karma is exhausted we will not suffer, but go to the pure land. So we should ride the steed of diligence.

The enemy of diligence is laziness. Laziness harms us even in this life. If we do not practice today, what will we do tomorrow when we die?

After Milarepa spoke, she thought. She said, "I have not prepared at all for my next life. From now on I must commit myself to dharma practice."

Milarepa said, "If you practice you do not need to give up your family, but you need to meditate at all times. You do not need to go to mountain retreat. if you do this, you can stay with your family"

So she asked, "How should I meditate?"

Milarepa said, "Just let your mind rest and look at it, without center our boundary."

An analogy for the nature of mind is the sky. When one sees the mind as it is without boundary or center, one sees that it abides just like space. A second analogy is the the sun and moon. It can be obscured by afflictive emotions, like the sun and moon are hidden by clouds. But when we are mindful and aware, whatever afflictive emotion arises, it is eliminated in its own place. It is like seeing a beautiful flower. Without awareness, one wishes to buy it. With awareness one realises that it is just like an illusion. So the mind is like a sun., that is always illuminating, even though it my temporarily be hidden.

If the mind is the buddha, then why do we need to meditate? That is because we need to develop a state of clarity when we are always mindful and aware. If so, then when afflictive emotions arise they cannot harm us. There are four obscurations. The first is not seeing the mind as it is. As a result, afflictive emotions arise, then as a result of afflictive emotions, karmic actions arise. And these give rise to karmic imprints. These imprints give rise to our temporary body, which ceases when the karma is exhausted. So these are the four obscurations.

We always hear the root of sufferings is our afflictive emotions. But we do not know how to eliminate them. For that, we need to meditate. To realise the view, we need to habituate the mind to it. As beginning practitioners, the reason we cannot eliminate afflictive emotions is because our wisdom is small.. Primordial wisdom, or yeshe, is always there and this wisdom realises all things as they are. We do have this yeshe, but it is like a little flame. It does not have the strength to burn our afflictive emotions up. But as it grows stronger, it will have the strength to burn up our concepts and emotions. This is the meditation that Milarepa taught. Milarepa was known for dealing with all demons and obstacles. This is because as a result of his strong meditation he did not grasp at them as being real.

Milarepa explained how to place the mind in meditation with three analogies: the mind is like mountain, mind is like ocean, and mind is like space. The mountain cannot be shaken by wind. When the mind is like a mountain it will not be shaken by concepts. When the mind is like an ocean its depths are undisturbed even though there may be waves on the surface. The text gives another analogy: guard your mind like guarding a jewel from a thief. The last analogy is have no doubts questions that the mind is like this or that, just as space has no qualities.

Then Nyama Paldarbum was instructed on the seven fold posture of Vairochana. It is important that the spine be straight when you meditate, so that the channels and winds are straight. Then one will be able to move the winds into the central channel. There are also mind instructions that go with this instruction on physical posture. She meditated like this for a while but then she had questions. She used examples like brush on the mountain and stars around the moon. to represent the small concepts that arise in the meditation. So she asked Milarepa about this.

Milarepa said that when you meditate on mind as space, clouds will arise. But they will just vanish back into the sky. When you meditate on mind as mountain, do not grasp at the bushes. When you meditate the mind as ocean, the wave seem powerful, but they have the same nature as the ocean and disappear back into it. Similarly when a emotion arises, recognise its nature and it will disappear back into the mind. Sometimes emotions or feelings of bliss arise and they are very strong. When anger arises, do not speak in anger. Just recognise it and slowly it will get smaller. One day you will be able to liberate afflictive emotions as they arise.

Practicing in this way, the young woman, Nyama Paldarbum, did not go into mountain retreat or shave her head. She remained a householder and was able to attain the rainbow body. So we should study her story.

Another disciple of Milarepa was named Ngigum Repa. He got the name of repa because he was accomplished in tummo and only needed to wear a cotton cloth. He asked Milarepa how to train the mind. Mila replied, you have to look at the nature of the mind. Its essence is unelaborated like space, neither existing or not. Nothing need to be done with it, it simply abides. This is how I practice. Mind's essence is unelaborated like space. When one leaves it like it is one realises the nature of all phenomena. Things still arise but one does not grasp after them and realises that they cannot harm one. To realise all phenomena as empty is difficult. We must rely first on study and investigation and by reading scriptures. First one depends on the understanding of listening and one still has a sense of self and other, But when one looks at the nature of the mind, one realises it has no true existence. Then you realise that your grasping has no basis.

This is difficult to understand for beginners. When you say a person is empty of self nature, they will say you are stupid. But when you understand the nature of one person, you will understand the nature of all beings. When you ask if someone is a person, they will say yes. But when you ask if a corpse is a person, they will say no, the mind is the person. But when you investigate the mind, what is it? The Buddha says it is just like a dream. When we go to sleep we wake up and say the dream was not real. This present life exists just like a dream. After we die, when we wake up we will be in the bardo state. Then if one has understood that outer phenomena will all be destroyed because they are all compounded phenomena and are impermanent and that inner phenomena are also impermanent, the mind will become calm and be at ease. Scientists know that the outer phenomena will be destroyed. But the mind will never go out of existence. If one realises all phenomena are impermanent, one will have no grasping or fear. So Milarepa has taught that there is no difference between happiness and suffering. When one does not grasp at phenomena, the mind will remain clear and unstained. When one realises this, the wish to meditate also disappears. One's mind just remains as it is, abiding like space. One recognises the mind to be the mind of the buddha and one is beyond thoughts of practicing or not practicing. An example for all sentient beings being buddha is water. When it is used to wash clothing, it becomes dirty. But though it is dirty, it is still water. It can be filtered to make it pure again. Through practicing our mind can be purified and become the mind of Buddha again.

When someone says I am a not a Buddhist and do not need this teaching, explain to them that the Buddhist view is just that the Buddha is inherent in the mind of all sentient beings. If someone says I cannot attain enlightenment, that cannot be, because the cause is in the mind in all beings. Even all outer phenomena are Buddha because they are empty.

#spirituality #wisdom #mindfulness #meditation #religion #buddhism #self care #zen #visualization #tibet

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sixtyfivehundredinvisiblebirds · 5 years ago

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What I Read in 2019

Florida- Lauren Groff The Collected Schizophrenias- Esmé Weijun Wang Severance- Ling Ma When Brooklyn was Queer- Hugh Ryan American Sonnets for my Past and Future Assassin- Terrance Hayes The Crying Book- Heather Cristle The Fat Sonnets- Samantha Zighelboim Odes to Lithium- Shira Erlichman The Man Who Spoke Snakish- Andrus Kivirähk Milk- Dorothea Lasky Crow With No Mouth: Ikkyū, 15th Century Zen Master- versions by Stephen Berg Circe- Madeleine Miller Ongoingness: The End of a Diary- Sarah Manguso A Fortune for Your Disaster- Hanif Abdurraqib Lincoln in the Bardo- George Saunders Madness- sam sax There, There- Tommy Orange Palaces for the People: How Social Infrastructure Can Help Fight Inequity, Polarization, & the Decline of Civic Life- Eric Klinenberg Matadora- Sarah Gambito Dept. of Speculation- Jenny Offil Station Eleven- Emily St. John Mandel Loving- Henry Green The Women- Hilton Als The Mars Room- Rachel Kushner Deaf Republic- Ilya Kaminsky The Möbius Strip Club of Grief- Bianca Stone I Like To Watch: Arguing My Way Through the TV Revolution- Emily Nussbaum Hera Lindsay Bird- Hera Lindsay Bird The Story of My Teeth- Valeria Luiselli Overpour- Jane Wong Ghostland: An American History in Haunted Places- Colin Dickey How to Cook a Wolf- MFK Fisher Dear Friend, from My Life I Write to You in Your Life- Yiyun Li Bel Canto- Ann Patchett Pachinko- Min Jin Lee How To Do Nothing- Jenny Odell Black Leopard, Red Wolf- Marlon James Little Labors- Rivka Galchen The Vertical Interrogation of Strangers-Bhanu Kapil The Tiger’s Wife- Téa Obreht Umami- Laia Jufresa Homesick for Another World- Ottessa Moshfegh Sag Harbor- Colson Whitehead Salt Houses- Hala Alyan Ugly Music- Diannely Antigua Citizen Illegal-José Olivarez Barbie Chang- Victoria Chang The Bialy Eaters- Mimi Sheraton Under the 82nd Airborne- Deborah Eisenberg The Stone Sky- N.K. Jemisin The Obelisk Gate- N.K. Jemisin Moon: Letters, Maps, Poems- Jennifer S. Cheng Not Here- Hieu Minh Nguyen The Fifth Season- N.K. Jemisin Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit- Jeanette Winterson Engine Empire- Cathy Park Hong My Brother’s Husband vol 2- Gengoroh Tagame Human Hours- Catherine Barnett My Brother’s Husband vol 1- Gengoroh Tagame Kingdom Animalia- Aracelis Girmay Madame Bovary- Gustave Flaubert, tr. Lydia Davis My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness- Nagata Kabi The Abundance- Annie Dillard White Trash: The 400-year untold history of class in America- Nancy Isenberg

#2019 #what I read

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the-owleryreader · 6 years ago

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I finally finished the 2018 POPSUGAR Reading Challenge!

REFLECTIONS

I found out about this challenge in December 2017 and quickly decided I wanted to try it. I spent days coming up with books to read for each prompt, though I’m quite sure each one has changed multiple times over the year. I was half-way through my final year of university when I really properly started the challenge, so the first five months were spent reading assigned books and trying to fit them into a prompt. By the time I’d finished university this year, I’d read a lot of books but not many towards the list, so I had a lot of catching up to do. For the last three or so months of 2018, I pretty much solely read books that would fit my remaining prompts. I really enjoyed doing the challenge, it definitely pushed me to read things I may not have normally picked up before, but I also found it quite limiting and felt like I couldn’t read other books I really wanted to because I felt the pressure to finish before the year was up! I probably wouldn’t have felt like this if I didn’t have to do so much catch up in the second half of the year, but I don’t think I’d do a year-long challenge again!

Anyone else does the challenge this year? Or any other year-long challenge? I’d love to know how you got on with it!

STATS

5 STAR READS: 20 4 STAR READS: 10 3 STAR READS: 8 2 STAR READS: 2 1 STAR READS: 0

NON-FICTION: 7 FICTION: 33

That’s a lot of 5 star books and I’m not sure whether it means I’m too generous with my ratings or whether I’m just really good at picking books I know I’ll like... Also around half of these were interspersed between required reading whilst I was still at university, some of which I hated, so maybe I was rating relative to the terribleness of other books I’d forced myself through for class. I’ve really enjoyed reading non-fiction this year but it definitely wasn’t easy to fit many non-fic books into these prompts.

THE LIST

I didn’t start this blog until June, so I’ve only reviewed some of the books I read for this challenge. I’ve included links to my reviews where I did so.

1 - A book made into a movie you’ve already seen

Brooklyn by Colm Tóibín (Review) - 5 STARS

2 - True crime

The Fact of a Body: A Murder and a Memoir by Alexandra Marzano-Lesnevich - 5 STARS

3 - The next book in a series you started

A Murder of Magpies by Mark Edwards - 4 STARS

4 - A book involving a heist

The Man Who Lived Underground by Richard Wright - 3 STARS

5 - Nordic noir

Roseanna by Maj Sjöwall and Per Wahlöö - 4 STARS

6 - A novel based on a real person

Lincoln in the Bardo by George Saunders (Review) - 5 STARS

7 - A book set in a country that fascinates you

Silence of the Grave by Arnaldur Idridason (set in Iceland) - 5 STARS

8 - A book with a time of day in the title

4.50 from Paddington by Agatha Christie (Review) - 3 STARS

9 - A book about a villain or antihero

The Wasp Factory by Iain Banks - 4 STARS

10 - A book about death or grief

Men We Reaped by Jesmyn Ward - 5 STARS

11 - A book with a female author who uses a male pseudonym

The Cuckoo’s Calling by Robert Galbraith (pseudonym of J. K. Rowling) (Review) - 2 STARS

12 - A book with an LGBTQ+ protagonist

The Well of Loneliness by Radclyffe Hall - 5 STARS

13 - A book that is also a stage play or musical

A Raisin in the Sun by Lorraine Hansberry - 5 STARS

14 - A book by an author of a different ethnicity than you

Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston - 5 STARS

15 - A book about feminism

Women and Power by Mary Beard - 4 STARS

16 - A book about mental health

Hunger by Roxane Gay - 4 STARS

17 - A book you borrowed or that was given to you as a gift

Becoming by Michelle Obama (Review) - 4 STARS

18 - A book by two authors

Good Omens by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett - 5 STARS

19 - A book about or involving a sport

Beartown by Fredrik Backman (Review) - 3 STARS

20 - A book by a local author

The Word for Woman is Wilderness by Abi Andrews (Review) - 5 STARS

21 - A book with your favourite colour in the title

The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison - 3 STARS

22 - A book with alliteration in the title

After Leaving Mr. MacKenzie by Jean Rhys - 3 STARS

23 - A book about time travel

The Psychology of Time Travel by Kate Mascarenhas (Review) - 5 STARS

24 - A book with a weather element in the title

Strange as This Weather Has Been by Ann Pancake (Review) - 3 STARS

25 - A book set at sea

The Woman in Cabin 10 by Ruth Ware (Review) - 3 STARS

26 - A book with an animal in the title

History of Wolves by Emily Fridlund (Review) - 4 STARS

27 - A book set on a different planet

The Martian Chronicles by Ray Bradbury (Review) - 5 STARS

28 - A book with song lyrics in the title

I’ll Give You the Sun by Jandy Nelson (song by Roy Smiles) (Review) - 3 STARS

29 - A book about or set on Halloween

The Halloween Tree by Ray Bradbury (Review) - 2 STARS

30 - A book with characters who are twins

The Secret History by Donna Tartt (Review) - 5 STARS

31 - A book mentioned in another book

The Tales of Beedle the Bard by J. K. Rowling (mentioned in Harry Potter) - 5 STARS

32 - A book from a celebrity book club

Exit West by Mohsin Hamid (SJP book club and recommended by Barack Obama) - 5 STARS

33 - A childhood classic you’ve never read

The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry - 5 STARS

34 - A book that’s published in 2018

Ghost Wall by Sarah Moss (Review) - 5 STARS

35 - A past Goodreads Choice Awards winner

The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks by Rebecca Skloot (Non-fiction, 2010) (Review) - 5 STARS

36 - A book set in the decade you were born

Forgive Me If I've Told You This Before by Karelia Stetz-Waters (‘89-’93) (Review) - 4 STARS

37 - A book you meant to read in 2017 but didn’t get to

House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski - 5 STARS

38 - A book with an ugly cover

Trumpet by Jackie Kay - 4 STARS

39 - A book that involves a bookstore or library

Dear Fahrenheit 451: Love and Heartbreak in the Stacks by Annie Spence (Review) - 4 STARS

40 - Your favourite prompt from a previous POPSUGAR challenge

Annihilation by Jeff Vandermeer (prompt was a book that’s becoming a movie this year) - 5 STARS

#popsugar reading challenge #booklr #bibliophile #bookish #bookworm #books #update

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ofparrish · 7 years ago

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- ̗̀☾ wiccan / pagan names ̖́-

so i was actually looking for some wiccan names and was getting a hard time trying to find some that i actually liked enough to use, and when i searched through tumblr i really couldn’t see much ?? plus it’s almost the best time of the year — aka halloween my dear spoopy friends — so why not !!!!!!! under the cut you’ll find a list of wiccan/pagan names you could use for witchy purposes. they are sorted by female, male and unisex, but they’re definitely not restricted by those labels. please like and/or reblog if you found this useful in anyway, and most importantly, enjoy!

female:

adamina (of the red earth)

adalia (noble one) 

adara (beauty) 

adonia (beautiful) 

adora (beloved) 

airlia (ethereal)

alaine (dear child) 

alaura (laurel) 

alena (bright one) 

alida (small winged one)

amadore (gift of love) 

amara (immortal, steadfast) 

amarande (immortal) 

amaris (child of the moon) 

amber (jewel) 

ambra (jewel) 

angeni (spirit) 

apollina (gift from apollo) 

aquene (peace) 

aradia: (a character from the “gospel of the witches” book)

ariadne (greek goddess of fertility; most holy)

autumn (season)

azura (clear blue sky) 

bonamy (good friend) 

brynn (hill)

callia (beautiful) 

calliope (beautiful voice) 

cameo (skin; pinkish stone) 

caterina (pure)

catriona (pure) 

ceridwen (the celtic goddess of poetry; beautiful as a poem)

chantal (stony, song + my actual name so it’s always a bonus asgfk)

charis (charity) 

chenoa (dove) 

creissant (to create) 

cressida (gold) 

dabria (an angel) 

dakota (friend) 

damara (gentle) 

daralis (beloved) 

deheune (divine one) 

divone (divine one) 

dyani (deer) 

ebony (dark beauty) 

edana (passionate) 

eleta (chosen) 

ena (fiery; passionate) 

enid (spirit) 

enola (solitary) 

ermin (universal; whole) 

esme (kind defender) 

ethne (fire) 

fanchone (free) 

faye (fairy) 

filia (friendship) 

gaia (mythological goddess of earth)

galatea (pygmalion’s inspiration behind “my fair lady”)

gavenia (white hawk) 

gemma (jewel) 

glenys — or glennis, glynis (someone living in a glen)

grainne (love) 

halcyone (tranquility)

iris (goddess of the rainbow)

jacy (the moon) 

javan (angel of greece)

kassia (pure) 

kendra (prophetess) 

kimi (secret) 

ladonna (lady) 

leala (loyal one) 

lena (light) 

lona (solitary one) 

lorna (alone; solitude + personal favorite, and actual character from over the garden wall) 

lucia (light) 

lucretia (brings light) 

mai (coyote)

maida (maiden) 

meda (priestess) 

natane (daughter) 

nenet (goddess of the deep) 

neona (new moon) 

niamh (bright) 

nimue (memory)

nokomis (daughter of the moon) 

obelia (pillar of strength) 

olathe (beautiful) 

orela (announcement from the gods) 

orenda (magic power) 

orianna (golden; dawn) 

oriel (golden; angel of destiny) 

panthea (of all the gods) 

panya (crowned with laurel) 

persephone (goddess of the underworld)

philana (lover of mankind) 

philomena (lover of the moon) 

rain (self explanatory)

raissa (thinker) 

raven (self explanatory)

roisin (little rose)

rowena (slender and fair + a tiny harry potter reference, too)

sage (prophet; aromatic plant used for cleansing) 

soleil (sun)

solita (alone; solitude) 

tania (fairy queen) 

terentia (gaurdian) 

thadea (courageous) 

thalia (to blossom)

topaz (gem)

vala (chosen) 

verena (defender)

wind (self explanatory)

willow (a tree that is believed to possess magical powers)

male:

acelin (noble)

adonis (manly beauty)

alastair (defender of mankind)

albus (white + very cool for potterheads)

altair (star)

angus (special; unique)

athan (immortal)

balder (god of light)

bardo (son of the earth)

bedwyr (knower of the grave)

brencis (crowned with laurel)

cadmun (warrior)

caedmon (wise warrior)

caradoc (dearly loved)

castor (a twin from the gemini constellation)

caton (knowledgable, wise)

cedric (bounty)

delano (of the night)

desmond (a knowledgeable man)

dimitri (lover of the earth)

einar (warrior; leader)

eoin (young warrior)

evander (good man)

fergus (strong and manly)

gawain (defender of the weak)

gunnar (bold warrior)

herne (hunter god of forest and vegetation)

kaspar (a treasured secret)

keene (wise)

koen (honest counselor)

laramie (tears of love)

lars (laurel crowned)

leaf (self explanatory)

leif (beloved)

llyr (celtic god of the sea)

lucian (man of light)

lysander (liberator)

maddock (generous)

neptune (god of the sea)

oberon (noble)

panas (immortal)

percival (one who pierces the valley)

pilan (supreme essence)

pollux (a twin from the gemini constellation)

rainer (counselor)

rune (secret)

tierney (lord)

zelig (the blessed one)

unisex:

adair (oak tree)

aidan (fire)

bevin (old soldier)

blair (child of the field)

cyrus (young lord)

devin (divine)

kieran — or keary (little dark one)

lark (a song bird)

morgan (lives by the sea)

phoenix (deep red)

quinn (wise)

river (self explanatory)

rowan (little red one, tree)

#name masterlist #names masterlist #masterlist #wiccan names #rph #rpt #rpc #wicca #name help #it took me .................. a while #m proud bros

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manjushriwisdom · 4 years ago

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What Is Nature Of Mind?

What is the nature of the mind?

Garchen Rinpoche

Milarepa was asked by Nyama Paldarbum, "What is the nature of the mind?"

So she then asked Milarepa., "What appears in your mind?"

Milarepa used the analogy of the sun shining in a cloudless sky.

She then asked Milarepa, "When you meditate, what is the ultimate result?"

So he asks her, "Do you want this practice?"

She gave rise to devotion to Milarepa, and asked him to be her teacher.

The enemy of diligence is laziness. Laziness harms us even in this life. If we do not practice today, what will we do tomorrow when we die?

After Milarepa spoke, she thought. She said, "I have not prepared at all for my next life. From now on I must commit myself to dharma practice."

So she asked, "How should I meditate?"

Milarepa said, "Just let your mind rest and look at it, without center our boundary."

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anoellesparks · 7 years ago

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Best (Subjective) Books of 2017

FICTION

Lincoln in the Bardo – George Saunders

The Vanishing Princess – Jenny Diski

Wait Till You See Me Dance - Deb Olin Unferth

Difficult Women – Roxane Gay

The Teeth of the Comb and Other Stories - Osama Alomar

Isadora – Amelia Gray

The Week – Joanna Ruocco

I Remember Nightfall – Marosa di Giorgio, collection translated by Jeannine Marie Pitas

Temporary People - Deepak Unnukrisksn

Big Lonesome – Joseph Scapellato

The Grip of It – Jac Jemc

Motherest – Kristin Iskandrian

Sour Heart – Jenny Zhang

Frontier – Can Xue

The Sarah Book – Scott McClanahan

Her Body and Other Parties – Carmen Maria Machado

Little Fires Everywhere – Celeste Ng

The Book of Joan - Lidia Yuknavitch

The Red Barn – Nat Baldwin

The Woman Who Lived Amongst the Cannibals - Robert Kloss

Eat Only When You’re Hungry – Lindsay Hunter

The Changeling - Victor LaValle

Crybaby Lane - Laura Ellen Scott

The Dark Dark: Stories – Samantha Hunt

Sing, Unburied, Sing – Jesmyn Ward

Always Happy Hour – Mary Miller

NON-FICTION

The Invention of Angela Carter – Edmund Gordon

A Woman is a Woman Until She is a Mother – Anna Prushinskaya

Dear Friend, From My Life I Write to You in Your Life – Yiyun Li

The Book of Mutter - Kate Zambreno

Dying: A Memoir – Cory Taylor

Caca Dolce – Chelsea Martin

We Are Never Meeting in Real Life – Samantha Irby

Killers of the Flower Moon – David Grann

Sunshine State – Sarah Gerard

Sorry to Disrupt the Peace – Patty Yumi Cottrell

POETRY

House of Lords and Commons - Ishion Hutchinson

Whereas – Layli Long Soldier

Certain Magical Acts – Alice Notley

Don’t Call Us Dead: Poems – Danez Smith

Debths - Susan Howe

Hacker – Aase Berg

Calling a Wolf a Wolf - Kaveh Akbar

BOOKS I HAVE NOT YET READ BUT PRETTY MUCH KNOW WOULD OTHERWISE MAKE THIS LIST:

Tales of Falling and Flying - Ben Loory

They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us - Hanif Willis-Abdurraqib

The Odyssey – translated by Emily Wilson

Hera Lindsay Bird – Hera Lindsay Bird

#best books of 2017 #fiction #poetry #nonfiction

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jafreitag · 6 years ago

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It’s Friday, I’m in love…

Heyyy. Yep. It’s Friday, again. How are you?

This week’s playlist is dedicated to my best friend. I mean, they all are. But this one is her flavor, nearly start to finish. There’s no weird jazz segment – only one, last song, and it’s true. No blues. Very little EDM or alt/indie rock. Just folks expressing themselves in a low-key way. (Even the Cardi B track is chill.) Light and easy, babe.

New stuff from Rosie Carney, Haley Heynderickx & Max Garcia Conover, Angelo De Augustine & Sufjan Stevens, The Darcys, Broken Social Scene, Stella Donnelly, Laura Stevenson, Lily & Madeleine, Wet, Cigarettes After Sex, Jealous of the Birds, Daisy the Great, Bad Bad Hats, Lola Kirke, Faye Webster, Hand Habits, COTE, Casey Dubie, Diedre & The Dark, Molly Burch, Better Oblivion Community Center, Dear Nora, Free Cake for Every Creature, Julia Bardo, Twist, Arlo Parks, Rose Elinor Dougal, Lost Under Heaven, Post Malone & Swae Lee, Ashe, Tove Styrke, Toro y Moi & Wet, Deerhunter, Lucy Dacus, and Mercury Rev & Phoebe Bridgers. Old stuff from Fleetwood Mac, Son Volt, (the) Led Zeppelin, The Spinanes, and The Moody Blues.

This one’s long, again, but finally mostly 2019.

The header image is by Steve Kim (@stvkmco on Ello). Thanks for that.

More soon.

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popblank · 6 years ago

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Year-end book roundup. I mostly ignored my reading goal this year and missed my Goodreads goal of 24 books but still ended up with a pretty good list.

Books I finished reading in 2018:

Gulag: A History by Anne Applebaum

Started this last year; it took 3 checkouts & about two months for me to get through it (not a light read). Seemed like a good overview of the history. Maybe I should give The Gulag Archipelago a try.

$2.00 a Day: Living on Almost Nothing in America by Kathryn Edin, H. Luke Schaefer

Can’t remember why I checked this out; I may have read some op-ed by one of the authors. Discusses extreme poverty in the US, particularly with little access to cash, e.g. when available support from government or other organizations may only be in kind.

Binti: Home by Nnedi Okorafor

Second in the Binti series, solid followup to the first.

Lincoln in the Bardo by George Saunders

Liked the unusual structure. Sort of regret not consuming this in audiobook form, because there are so many different voices involved.

The Book of Joan by Lidia Yuknavitch

Easily the strangest book I read this year. (I think I mean that in a good way.) Might be worth a re-read.

Dear Madam President: An Open Letter to the Women Who Will Run the World by Jennifer Palmieri

The only thing I listened to as an audiobook this year, very short. I remembered hearing her on podcast during the 2016 election which was interesting then and maybe even more so in hindsight.

Sing, Unburied, Sing by Jesmyn Ward

A book where I felt like I was watching a movie. Only vaguely remember the story but still have images in my mind after 8 months.

Binti: The Night Masquerade by Nnedi Okorafor

The last one in the Binti series. Not as memorable for me as the first two.

How Everything Became War and the Military Became Everything: Tales from the Pentagon by Rosa Brooks

Stories and discussion about what it means when the US is constantly at war. Interesting anecdotes and insights.

In the Woods by Tana French

Character-driven and gloomy. The mysteries I read last year were more plotty so this was a nice change of pace.

A Raisin in the Sun by Lorraine Hansberry

Read after seeing the play for the first time. Remarkable how current it feels 60 years later.

The Likeness by Tana French

Read this because it featured one of my favorite characters from In the Woods. Enjoyed it but not really itching to pick up the next one in the series.

Circe by Madeline Miller

Mythological retelling from Circe’s point of view, a good read. The gods are generally jerks; humans, a mixed bag.

Red Famine: Stalin’s War on Ukraine by Anne Applebaum

Humans are terrible. (For some parts of the book I would not read more than a chapter per day because it would put me in such a negative mood.)

Interpreter of Maladies by Jhumpa Lahiri

Finely observed short stories of ordinary lives.

The Legend of Korra: Turf Wars Part 3 by Michael Dante DiMartino

The only physical book I read this year. Was a bit underwhelmed.

American Street by Ibi Zoboi

Read this within a day. Don’t remember much except that I enjoyed it and wanted to read other things by the author.

The World Only Spins Forward: The Ascent of Angels in America by Isaac Butler and Dan Kois

Read after seeing the plays. Helped provide a lot of cultural/historical context, though I am not sure I can ever feel as strongly about AiA as pretty much everyone quoted in the book does.

The Refugees by Viet Thanh Nguyen

Another set of short stories. Compared to Interpreter of Maladies the stories feel looser and brighter (like the sun around 2:30 pm right now), but maybe I am just getting that vibe from the west coast vs. east coast settings of several of the stories.

The People in the Trees by Hanya Yanagihara

Was very surprised at how this was so readable even though the narrator is pretty much detestable from the start. Makes me want to read A Little Life.

Difficult Women by Roxane Gay

Third book of short stories this year. I had read a couple of her previous nonfiction books (Bad Feminist, Hunger) and recognized some of the elements in the stories from those, which occasionally gave me an odd feeling of intruding on someone’s life.

Darkness Visible: A Memoir of Madness by William Styron.

An account of the author’s depression. It was published almost 30 years ago and I gather it was pretty groundbreaking at the time. The only comparison I have is to the Hyperbole and a Half depression comics (part 1, part 2), except this is a lot more serious and writerly.

Books I tried and failed to read this year (read more than ten pages, fully intended to complete, did not finish):

Ready Player One by Ernest Cline

Tried to read it at least twice, saw about a quarter of the movie on TV while traveling, wasn’t into the narrator’s voice or the 80s references.

Pride by Ibi Zoboi

Was on my list after reading American Street but I found I wasn’t really in a mood to read a retelling of Pride and Prejudice.

Spaceman of Bohemia by Jaroslav Kalfar

Premise seemed interesting but I got distracted by another book (I believe it was The World Only Spins Forward) and never got back to it.

A Frozen Heart by Elizabeth Rudnick

Started reading after seeing the Frozen stage musical. Novel set in the Frozen universe, targeted at an audience slightly older than that of the movie (”slightly older” meaning tweens, apparently). Don’t really care about Hans.

Angels in America by Tony Kushner

Started reading after seeing the plays in the hopes that things I missed on first viewing would be easier to pick up on in text. But 7+ hours of stage time is still a long script and I didn’t finish before my borrowing time was up.

Homegoing by Yaa Gyasi

Keep hearing how great it is but did not get very far before my checkout time was up. May try again this year.

Crazy Blood by T. Jefferson Parker

A thriller about competitive ski racers whose lives did not really interest me.

2666 by Roberto Bolaño

Vaguely remember something about literature professors with esoteric areas of interest. Was distracted by midterm elections.

Star Wars: From a Certain Point of View by A Lot of Authors

Collection of short stories set in the Star Wars universe. While I’m not a Star Wars superfan, I have seen most of the movies and liked the idea of established writers writing fanfiction. Lost steam after maybe the third or fourth cantina story.

How to Survive a Plague by David France

Pretty interesting and I think I should pick it up again sometime. Haven’t watched the documentary.

#books #lists #year-end roundup

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lamanie-litera · 8 years ago

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He was his father’s favorite

XV.

We embraced the boy at the door of his white stone home.

hans vollman

He gave us a shy smile, not untouched by trepidation at what was to come.

the reverend everly thomas

Go on, Mr. Bevins said gently. It is for the best.

hans vollman

Off you go, Mr. Vollman said. Nothing left for you here.

roger bevins iii

Goodbye then, the lad said.

Nothing scary about it, Mr. Bevins said. Perfectly natural.

hans vollman

Then it happened.

roger bevins iii

An extraordinary occurrence.

hans vollman

Unprecedented, really.

the reverend everly thomas

The boy’s gaze moved past us.

hans vollman

He seemed to catch sight of something beyond.

roger bevins iii

His face lit up with joy.

hans vollman

Father, he said.

the reverend everly thomas

XVI.

An exceedingly tall and unkempt fellow was making his way toward us through the darkness.

hans vollman

This was highly irregular. It was after hours; the front gate would be locked.

the reverend everly thomas

The boy had been delivered only that day. That is to say, the man had most likely been here—

roger bevins iii

Quite recently.

hans vollman

That afternoon.

roger bevins iii

Highly irregular.

the reverend everly thomas

The gentleman seemed lost. Several times he stopped, looked about, retraced his steps, reversed course.

hans vollman

He was softly sobbing.

roger bevins iii

He was not sobbing. My friend remembers incorrectly. He was winded. He did not sob.

hans vollman

He was softly sobbing, his sadness aggravated by his mounting frustration at being lost.

roger bevins iii

He moved stiffly, all elbows and knees.

the reverend everly thomas

Bursting out of the doorway, the lad took off running toward the man, look of joy on his face.

roger bevins iii

Which turned to consternation when the man failed to sweep him up in his arms as, one gathered, must have been their custom.

the reverend everly thomas

The boy instead passing through the man, as the man continued to walk toward the white stone home, sobbing.

roger bevins iii

He was not sobbing. He was very much under control and moved with great dignity and certainty of—

hans vollman

He was fifteen yards away now, headed directly toward us.

roger bevins iii

The Reverend suggested we yield the path.

hans vollman

The Reverend having strong feelings about the impropriety of allowing oneself to be passed through.

roger bevins iii

The man reached the white stone home and let himself in with a key, the lad then following him in.

hans vollman

Mr. Bevins, Mr. Vollman, and I, concerned for the boy’s welfare, moved into the doorway.

the reverend everly thomas

The man then did something—I do not quite know how to—

hans vollman

He was a large fellow. Quite strong, apparently. Strong enough to be able to slide the boy’s—

the reverend everly thomas

Sick-box.

hans vollman

The man slid the box out of the slot in the wall, and set it down upon the floor.

roger bevins iii

And opened it.

hans vollman

Kneeling before the box, the man looked down upon that which—

the reverend everly thomas

He looked down upon the lad’s supine form in the sick-box.

hans vollman

Yes.

the reverend everly thomas

At which point, he sobbed.

hans vollman

He had been sobbing all along.

roger bevins iii

He emitted a single, heartrending sob.

hans vollman

Or gasp. I heard it as more of a gasp. A gasp of recognition.

the reverend everly thomas

Of recollection.

hans vollman

Of suddenly remembering what had been lost.

the reverend everly thomas

And touched the face and hair fondly.

hans vollman

As no doubt he had many times done when the boy was—

roger bevins iii

Less sick.

hans vollman

A gasp of recognition, as if to say: Here he is again, my child, just as he was. I have found him again, he who was so dear to me.

the reverend everly thomas

Who was still so dear.

hans vollman

Yes.

roger bevins iii

The loss having been quite recent.

the reverend everly thomas

XVII.

Willie Lincoln was wasting away.

Epstein, op. cit.

The days dragged wearily by, and he grew weaker and more shadow-like.

Keckley, op. cit.

Lincoln’s secretary, William Stoddard, recalled the question on everyone’s lips: “Is there no hope? Not any. So the doctors say.”

In “Team of Rivals: The Political Genius of Abraham Lincoln,” by Doris Kearns Goodwin.

At about 5 o’clock this afternoon, I was lying half asleep on the sofa in my office, when his entrance aroused me. “Well, Nicolay,” said he choking with emotion, “my boy is gone—he is actually gone!” and bursting into tears, turned and went into his own office.

In “With Lincoln in the White House,” by John G. Nicolay, edited by Michael Burlingame.

The death was only moments ago. The body lay upon the bed, the coverlet thrown back. He wore the pale blue pajamas. His arms lay at his sides. The cheeks were still enflamed. Three pillows lay in a heap on the floor. The small side table was askew, as if roughly pushed aside.

In “Eyewitness to History: The Lincoln White House,” edited by Stone Hilyard, account of Sophie Lenox, maid.

I assisted in washing him and dressing him, and then laid him on the bed, when Mr. Lincoln came in. I never saw a man so bowed down with grief. He came to the bed, lifted the cover from the face of his child, gazed at it long and lovingly, and earnestly, murmuring, “My poor boy, he was too good for this earth. God has called him home. I know that he is much better off in heaven, but then we loved him so. It is hard, hard to have him die!”

Keckley, op. cit.

He was his father’s favorite. They were intimates—often seen hand in hand.

Keckley, op. cit., account of Nathaniel Parker Willis.

He was his father over again both in magnetic personality and in all his gifts and tastes.

In “Lincoln’s Sons,” by Ruth Painter Randall.

He was the child in whom Lincoln had invested his fondest hopes; a small mirror of himself, as it were, to whom he could speak frankly, openly, and confidingly.

In “Reckoning: An Insider’s Memories of Difficult Times,” by Tyron Philian.

Will was the true picture of Mr. Lincoln, in every way, even to carrying his head slightly inclined toward his left shoulder.

Burlingame, op. cit., account of a Springfield neighbor.

One feels such love for the little ones, such anticipation that all that is lovely in life will be known by them, such fondness for that set of attributes manifested uniquely in each: mannerisms of bravado, of vulnerability, habits of speech and mispronouncement and so forth; the smell of the hair and head, the feel of the tiny hand in yours—and then the little one is gone! Taken! One is thunderstruck that such a brutal violation has occurred in what had previously seemed a benevolent world. From nothingness, there arose great love; now, its source nullified, that love, searching and sick, converts to the most abysmal suffering imaginable.

In “Essay Upon the Loss of a Child,” by Mrs. Rose Milland.

“This is the hardest trial of my life,” he confessed to the nurse, and in a spirit of rebellion this man, overweighted with care and sorrows, cried out: “Why is it? Why is it?”

In “Abraham Lincoln: The Boy and the Man,” by James Morgan.

Great sobs choked his utterance. He buried his head in his hands, and his tall frame was convulsed with emotion. I stood at the foot of the bed, my eyes full of tears, looking at the man in silent, awe-stricken wonder. His grief unnerved him, and made him a weak, passive child. I did not dream that his rugged nature could be so moved. I shall never forget those solemn moments—genius and greatness weeping over love’s lost idol.

Keckley, op. cit.

George Saunders, Lincoln in the Bardo, 2017.

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Lama Kyeno

CALLING THE GURU FROM AFAR

A Supplication to Pierce Your Heart with Devotion

Namo Guruve. This style of supplication called Calling the Guru from Afar is known by everyone. Nevertheless, the key point for invoking the guru’s blessing is devotion inspired by disenchantment and renunciation, not as mere platitude but from the core of your heart, from the very marrow of your bones. Chant the song melodiously with the confidence of having resolved that your own guru is none other than the Awakened One.

Guru, think of me. Kind root guru, think of me. Essence of the buddhas of the three times, Source of the sublime Dharma of statements and realization, Sovereign of the sangha, the assembly of noble ones, Root guru think of me.

Great treasure of blessings and compassion, Source of the two siddhis, Enlightened activity that grants all wishes, Root guru think of me.

Guru Boundless Light, think of me. Regard me from the expanse of the unconstructed dharmakaya. Lead me, wandering throughout samsara because of my evil actions, To rebirth in your pure land of Great Bliss.

Guru mighty Avalokiteshvara, think of me. Regard me from the expanse of luminous sambhogakaya. Completely pacify the suffering of the six classes of beings And churn the three realms of samsara from their depths.

Guru Padmasambhava, think of me. Regard me from Chamara, the realm of Lotus Light. As I am without refuge in this dark age, Protect your helpless disciple with your swift compassion.

Guru Yeshe Tsogyal, think of me. Regard me from the celestial city of great bliss. Though I have done much evil, Free me from the ocean of existence into the great city of liberation.

Lineage gurus of the Kama and Terma, think of me. Regard me from the expanse of the unified wakefulness, In my mind, a cave dark with confusion, Make the sun of realization dawn.

Omniscient Drimey Ozer, think of me. Regard me from the expanse of the five lights of spontaneous presence. Having perfected the great strength of realizing primordial purity Help me reach culmination in the four visions.

Peerless Lord Atisha, father and sons, think of me. Regard me from Tushita while surrounded by hundreds of deities. Cause bodhichitta, emptiness suffused with compassion, To arise within my mind.

Supreme siddhas, Marpa, Milarepa and Gampopa, think of me. Regard me from the basic space of indestructible great bliss. Help me to attain the supreme siddhi of Mahamudra, empty bliss, And awaken dharmakaya in the depths of my heart.

Mighty lord of this world, Karmapa, think of me. Regard me, from the basic space, taming beings to the reaches of space. Help me realize that all phenomena are false, mere illusions. Cause experiences to arise as the three kayas.

Masters of the four great and eight lesser Kagyu lineages, think of me. Regard me from the buddhafield of pure personal experience. Having dissolved the confusion of the four states, Lead me to the end of experience and realization.

Five Sakya forefathers, think of me. Regard me from the expanse of samsara and nirvana indivisible. Combining the pure view, meditation and conduct, Lead me along the supreme path of secrets.

Unequalled masters of the Shangpa Kagyu, think of me. Regard me from the buddha realm of total purity. By properly practicing means and liberation, Enable me to discover the unity beyond learning.

Mahasiddha Tangtong Gyalpo, think of me. Regard me from the expanse of effortless compassion. By practicing the discipline of realizing the absence of concrete reality, Enable me to master prana and mind.

Only father, Dampa Sangye, think of me. Regard me from the basic space which accomplishes the supreme activity. With the lineage blessings entering my heart, Cause auspicious connections to arise in all directions.

Only mother, Machik Labdron, think of me. Regard me from the expanse of prajnaparamita. Cutting through the subtle pretense of clinging to a self, May I see the truth of the simplicity beyond self.

Omniscient Dolpo Sangye, think of me. Regard me from the basic space endowed with the supreme of all aspects. Having stilled the breath of transference within the central channel, May I attain the vajra body beyond transference.

Jetsun Taranatha, think of me. Regard me from the basic space of the three companions. Having traveled the secret vajra path unimpeded, May I accomplish the celestial rainbow body.

Terchen Chokgyur Lingpa, think of me. Regard me from the all-pervasive realm of dharmakaya. Having let dualistic thought dissolve into the state of non-arising, May I re-assume the seat of natural awareness.

Orgyen Dechen Lingpa, think of me. Regard me from the self-luminous realm of sambhogakaya. Enable me to realize, beyond abandonment and attainment, The great spontaneous presence of the five kayas and wisdoms.

All-pervasive Shikpo Lingpa, think of me. Regard me from the compassionate state of taming beings. Discovering the jewel of mind within myself, May the fruition be perfected within the ground.

Sempa Padma Nyugu, think of me. Look upon me from the realm of the Magical Net. May I be inseparable from the supreme wisdom king, The sovereign of the four kayas.

Jamyang Khyentse Wangpo, think of me. Regard me from the basic space of the wisdom of twofold knowledge. Dispelling the mental darkness of unknowing, May I spread the light of supreme knowledge.

Osel Trulpey Dorje, think of me. Regard me from the expanse of five-colored rainbow lights. Having purified the stains of essences, winds and perception, May I awaken within the youthful vase body.

Pema Do-Ngak Lingpa, think of me. Regard me from the expanse of unchanging empty bliss. Grant me the ability to completely fulfill All intentions of the victorious ones and their heirs.

Ngawang Yonten Gyatso, think of me. Regard me from the expanse of the unity of basic space and wisdom. Rending my clinging to an apparent reality, May I bring whatever arises onto the path.

Son of the victorious one, Lodro Thaye, think of me. Regard me from the expanse of loving-kindness and compassion. Knowing all beings to be my kind parents, May I acquire a pure, altruistic heart.

Pema Gargyi Wangchuk, think of me. Regard me from the basic space of luminous great bliss. Having liberated the five poisons into the five wisdoms, May I destroy the duality of loss and gain.

Tennyi Yungdrung Lingpa, think of me. Regard me from the basic space in which existence and peace are equal. Genuine devotion having grown in my mind, May the great realization and liberation be simultaneous.

Bokar, mighty Vajradhara, think of me. Regard me from the supreme realm of Akanishtha. Having realized all apparent phenomena as Mahamudra, May I attain non-meditation, the dharmakaya. 1

Kind root guru, think of me. Regard me from the crown of my head, the abode of great bliss. Having met dharmakaya, natural awareness, face to face, May I accomplish buddhahood in a single lifetime.

Alas! Sentient beings like me, with negative karma and evil deeds, Have wandered in samsara from beginningless time. I continue to experience endless suffering, But I never feel even the briefest moment of regret. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that renunciation may arise from the depths of my heart.

Though having attained the freedoms and riches I squander my life, Always preoccupied by the pointless affairs of this world. When applying myself to the great pursuit of liberation, I am overcome by laziness. As I return from the island of jewels empty-handed, Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that my human life may become meaningful.

Not a single life on earth escapes death, Even now, they pass away one after the other. Soon, I too must die. I am a fool, thinking I will remain forever. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me so that with no time to waste, I will curtail my plans.

I will be separated from each of my loved ones. All the valuables I have hoarded will be enjoyed by others. Even this body I hold so dear will be left behind, And, within the bardo, my consciousness will wander aimlessly throughout samsara. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that I may realize the futility of it all.

The black darkness of fear confronts me. The fierce gale of karma pursues me. The lord of death's hideous thugs club and beat me. Having to endure the unbearable sufferings of negative rebirths; Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that I may be liberated from the abyss of the lower realms.

Though my faults are as great as a mountain I keep them to myself. Though others' faults are as small as a sesame seed I proclaim them far and wide. Though I lack the least of qualities, I boast about how great I am. I call myself a Dharma practitioner but behave to the contrary. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me to pacify my selfish pride

Within, I conceal my nemesis - the demon of ego-clinging. All my thoughts only cause disturbing emotions to increase. All my actions result in nonvirtue. As I have not so much as turned towards the path of liberation, Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that self-grasping be severed at the root.

With a little praise or blame comes that much joy or sorrow. With a few harsh words I let down my armor of patience. Although I see the afflicted, I feel no compassion. When I have the chance to be generousam bound by the knot of greed. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me to mingle my mind with the Dharma.

Though insubstantial, I ascribe substance to samsara. For the sake of food and clothing I abandon what has lasting value. Although I have all that is needed, I crave for more and more. I deceive myself with unreal, illusory phenomena. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me to abandon any interest in such a life as this.

Unable to bear the slightest physical or mental pain, With jaded heart, I don't hesitate to take inferior rebirths. Even though I directly perceive that cause and effect are unfailing, Instead of doing what is right, I only perpetuate harm. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that I gain conviction in the law of karma.

I hate my enemies and cling to my friends. Groping in dark delusion as to what to accept and reject, When practicing the Dharma, I fall prey to dullness and sleep. When involved in non-Dharma, my senses are clear and sharp. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that I destroy my enemy - disturbing emotions.

On the surface, I appear to be a pure practitioner; While inwardly my mind isn't mingled with the Dharma. Like a viper I hide my disturbing emotions within, But faced with trouble, my faults are exposed. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that I may tame my own mind.

Failing to notice my own shortcomings, Pretending to be spiritual, I am anything but. Naturally skilled in negative emotions and karma, Again and again good intentions arise, again and again they come to naught. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that I might see my own faults.

As each day passes, death approaches ever nearer. As each day passes, my heart becomes ever more callused. While following a teacher my devotion gradually fades, And my love and pure perception towards my Dharma friends diminish. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me to tame my savage mind.

I take refuge, engender bodhichitta, and supplicate, But devotion and compassion are not felt deep within my heart These Dharma activities are mere lip service. I only go through the motions and am left untouched. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that whatever I do may lead to Dharma.

All suffering arises from wanting my own happiness. Although it is said that buddhahood is accomplished by wanting to help others, Though I engender bodhichitta, secretly my aims are selfish. On top of not benefiting others, I harm them. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that I am able to put myself in others' place.

Although my guru is the Buddha actually manifest, I think of him as simply human. I forget his kindness in imparting the profound instructions. If he doesn't give me what I want, I lose faith. I obscure myself by seeing his behavior through doubts and disdain. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that my devotion may not fade but grow.

Although my mind is the Buddha, I don't recognize it. Although my thinking is dharmakaya, I don't realize it. Although nonfabrication is the innate, I fail to sustain it. Although naturalness is the basic state, I am not convinced. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that natural awareness is liberated into itself.

Although death is sure to come, I am unable to take it to heart. Although applying the genuine Dharma is sure to help, I am unable to practice it. Although the law of karma is certainly true, I don't discriminate correctly. Although mindfulness is surely needed, I don't apply it and am carried away by distraction. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that I maintain undistracted mindfulness.

Through previous bad karma I was born at the end of this dark age. All I have done only results in suffering. The bad influence of others has cast its shadow upon me. My practice of virtue is overcome by the distractions of meaningless talk. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me to be able to persevere in Dharma practice.

At first, I thought of nothing but the Dharma. But in the end, the results of my actions only cause further samsara and the lower realms. The harvest of liberation is ravaged by the frost of nonvirtue. Like a savage, I destroy what is of lasting value. Guru think of me, regard me with compassion. Bless me that I may perfect the sublime Dharma.

Bless me that disenchantment is felt from the bottom of my heart. Bless me that without wasting time I curtail my plans. Bless me that I take death to heart. Bless me that I feel conviction in the law of karma.

Bless me that the path is free of obstacles. Bless me that I am able to practice diligently. Bless me that difficulties are utilized as the path. Bless me that I may be steadfast in using the remedies.

Bless me that I feel genuine devotion. Bless me that I may come face to face with the natural state. Bless me that natural awareness is awakened within my heart. Bless me that confused experience is severed at the root. Bless me that I may accomplish buddhahood in a single lifetime.

Precious guru I supplicate you, Kind Dharma lord, I cry out with longing, Unfortunate though I am, my one hope is you. Bless me that we mingle our minds indivisibly.

Although several devoted practitioners have encouraged me to write something like this for a long time, I neglected to do so. Recently, at the request of both Samdrup Dronma, a noble female practitioner, and Deva Rakshita, this was written by Lodro Thaye, someone who merely maintains the image of a dark age lama, at the great practice center of Dzongsho Deshek Dupa. May virtuous goodness increase!

Rangjung Yeshe Translations and Publications, 1998 Kathnamdu, Nepal Third edition 2001

Lama Kyeno, on my life I am honest that Garchen Rinpoche been becoming my spiritual father. I prefer not sleep or eat than miss his teaching. His advice he teach me it's constant work that I do.

When we talk about the Lama find the teache4 that gonna to tame your mind and point the way of enlightenment is hard.

It could take many years before we find one, it's all depends on our karma, Garchen Rinpoche advice when we are in search we should take refuge on first center we can have to start our path.

“ long ago my path start exactly like that I found Lama Teunsang felt he will teach me well , In my path Lama Teunsang and Garchen Rinpoche are really important for me.

How do we find our lama, first we don't need to see if is Rinpoche or not sincerely we can be surprised by any lama. What we need to see is do his teacher resonates with us ?

“ Garchen Rinpoche and I think the same we are Milarepa students, we follow Rime and many others things like Tara have massive importance for Garchen Rinpoche as well for my own path"

What we need to see that like the Buddha say do the teaching means something from us ? Do that make sense, do that turn our mind to Dharma “ compassion and wisdom “

If that do all this yes that our lama.

What to avoid ? Sadly our world isn't safe “ when I went to India I saw the real sddhidhas and the one who dance with the cobra for rupees" today in our world we got also fake Lamas.

“ three weeks ago I received a email from maitreya jesus christ and when I dig to get to his holy teaching we pay high price “

“ when on the other side Garchen Rinpoche gave his teaching for free and ask for donations, when I personally met him my financial situation was close to disaster yet he never made me pay"

Like in India there's fake gurus and they used faith to make there bank a 6 figures wage.

But Dharma is far from that, the lama is responsible for empowerments and teaching, personal advice on our spiritual path .

Having one Lama or many Lamas well same story it’s how they tame our mind, some of us got one sone got many.

For conclude find a lama on our paty is the most important part of it from this came all our teachings.CALLING THE GURU FROM AFAR

A Supplication to Pierce Your Heart with Devotion

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patronizingbunnyrabbits · 5 years ago

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Books I Read in 2019

1. Everything is Illuminated - Jonathan Safran Foer

2. Symptoms of Being Human - Jeff Garvin

3. Wishful Drinking - Carrie Fisher

4. Fox 8 - George Saunders

5. Postcards from the Edge - Carrie Fisher

6. Carmilla - Joseph Sheridan Le Fanu

7. Lincoln in the Bardo - George Saunders

8. Idle Days - Thomas Desaulniers-Brousseu and Simon Leclerc

9. Spinning - Tillie Walden

10. Dog Songs - Mary Oliver

11. Crow Planet - Lyanda Lynn Haupt

12. None of the Above - IW Gregorio

13. Scrappy Little Nobody - Anna Kendrick

14. Dear Fahrenheit 451 - Annie Spence

15. Heartburn - Nora Ephron

16. Me Before You - Jojo Moyes

17. Good Me Bad Me - Ali Land

18. Disobedience - Naomi Alderman

19. I’ll Be Gone in the Dark - Michelle McNamara

20. Dark Places - Gillian Flynn

21. speak - Laurie Halse Anderson

22. What If It’s Us - Becky Albertalli and Adam Silvera

23. Take Me With You - Andrea Gibson

24. The Portable Veblen - Elizabeth McKenzie

25. a city inside - Tillie Walden

26. The Immortalists - Chloe Benjamin

27. Less - Andrew Sean Greer

28. Higher, Further, Faster. - Liza Palmer

29. Dear Rachel Maddow - Adrienne Kisner

30. High: Everything You Want to Know About Drugs, Alcohol, and Addiction - David and Nic Sheff

31. Room - Emma Donoghue

32. The Sixth Extinction - Elizabeth Kolbert

33. Mindhunter - John Douglas and Mark Olshaker

34. Being Mortal - Atul Gawande

35. The One Hundred Nights of Hero - Isabel Greenberg

36. The Year of Magical Thinking - Joan Didion

37. Sharp Objects - Gillian Flynn

38. Stay Sexy and Don’t Get Murdered - Karen Kilgariff and Georgia Hardstark

39. Americanah - Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

40. Anya’s Ghost - Vera Brosgol

41. The Namesake - Jhumpa Lahiri

42. Euphoria - Lily King

43. The Order of Time - Carlo Rovelli

44. Up in the Air - Walter Kirn

45. The Rise and Fall of the Dinosaurs - Steve Brusatte

46. Friends with Boys - Faith Erin Hicks

47. The Silence of the Lambs - Thomas Harris

48. Embroideries - Marjane Satrapi

49. The Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue - Mackenzi Lee

50. Seven Brief Lessons on Physics - Carlo Rovelli

51. American Vampire - Scott Snyder, Rafael Albuquerque, and Stephen King

52. Unworthy: How to Stop Hating Yourself - Anneli Rufus

53. I Feel Bad About My Neck and Other Thoughts on Being a Woman - Nora Ephron

54. So Sad Today - Melissa Broder

55. The Curse of the Boyfriend Sweater - Alanna Okun

56. Bad Friends - Ancco

57. The Martian Chronicles - Ray Bradbury

58. Furiously Happy - Jenny Lawson

59. Reasons to Stay Alive - Matt Haig

60. The Weight of the Stars - K. Ancrum

61. Drift: The Unmooring of American Military Power - Rachel Maddow

62. The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake - Aimee Bender

63. Swamplandia! - Karen Russell

64. The End of the Fxxxing World - Charles Forsman

65. I love this part - Tillie Walden

66. Blue is the Warmest Color - Julie Maroh

67. The Vegetarian - Han Kang

68. If I Was Your Girl - Meredith Russo

69. Something New - Lucy Knisley

70. Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe - Benjamin Alire Sáenz

71. In the Body of the World - Eve Ensler

72. The Song of Achilles - Madeline Miller

73. Yes Please - Amy Poehler

74. Letter to My Daughter - Maya Angelou

75. Z: A Novel of Zelda Fitzgerald - Therese Anne Fowler

76. two boys kissing - David Levithan

77. Moomin Begins a New Life - Tove Jansson

78. Artichoke Tales - Megan Kelso

79. Boy Erased - Garrard Conley

80. Many Love - Sophie Lucido Johnson

81. Last Day in Vietnam - Will Eisner

82. Bosspants - Tina Fey

83. The Radium Girls - Kate Moore

84. I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings - Maya Angelou

85. Sammy & Juliana in Hollywood - Benjamin Alire Sáenz

86. Logicomix - Apostolos Doxiadis and Christos Papadimitriou

87. Juliet Takes a Breath - Gabby Rivera

88. Nimona - Noelle Stevenson

89. The Nature Fix - Florence Williams

90. The Ten Most Beautiful Experiments - George Johnson

Favorites: Less, The Song of Achilles

Least Favorite: The Ten Most Beautiful Experiments

#books #2019

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porlockstompf · 7 years ago

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ALL BOMBS 2017

FAVOURITE PLATTERSTOMPF OF THE YEAR

~ BURN THE AMPLIFAYA! ~

01 doronco gumo "man star" [k7 & dl] (+ doronco gumo "our bloody valentine live [140207] [first show]" [dl])

02 france "live à metamórfosi 2019" [lp] (+ france "untitled [live @ vilnius 2017]" [cdr] )

03 bardo pond "under the pines" [lp] (+ curanderos "curanderos" [lp])

04 the bug vs earth "concrete desert" [lp]

05 deep frosty "blues band" [k7]

06 ulaan passerine "the landscape of memory" [12"] 07 miminokoto "koenji 07-02-2016" [cd] 08 worst "MMXVII aka in/out" [k7] 09 swans "deliquescence" [cdx2] 10 keiji haino megapack volume I - nazoranai "beginning to fall in line befor me, so decorously the nature of all that must be transformed” [lp] - keiji haino & fushitsusha "unheard pieces of the late XXth & early XXIst centuries" [cd] - oren ambarchi, jim o'rourke & keiji haino "this dazzling, genuine ''difference'' now where shall it go?" [lpx2]

11 blown out "superior venus" [lp & cdr] (+ blown out "live @ the windmill brixton 160317" [dl]) (+ blown out "live @ stag & hounds bristol 180317" [dl]) (+ blown out "live @ desertfest [dl]") 12 babils "ji ameeto" [lp] 13 junko & michel henritzi "live at asaga ya ten, tokyo 01.11.16" [k7] 14 matt lajoie [aka herb] "the accidental eye" [k7] + ash & herb "northern lights" [cdr] 15 dread "in dub" [cd]

16 otto lindholm "alter" [lp] 17 suzuki junzo "shizuka na heya de ashioto wa" [cd] 18 oren ambarchi "stacte karaoke II" [12"] 19 sun kil moon "common as light & love are red valleys of blood" [cdx2] + jesu & sun kil moon "30 seconds to the decline of planet earth" [cd] + mark kozelek with ben boye, & jim white "mark kozelek with ben boye, & jim white" [cdx2] + mark kozelek "night talks [ep]" [cd] (+ mark kozelek & sean yeaton "yellow kitchen" [cd]) 20 duke garwood "garden of ashes" [cd]

21 object collection "it's all true" [cd] 22 leda "gitarrmusik III-X" [lp] 23 aaron dilloway & tom smith "the dutch viruses" [dl] 24 ecstatic vision "raw rock fury" [lp] 25 ian william craig "durbē" [cd]

26 burial "subtemple bw beachfires" [10"] + burial "rodent bw rodent kode9 remix" [10"] + burial "pre dawb bw indoors" [12"] 27 giulio aldinucci "borders & ruins" [lp] 28 10 000 russos "distress distress" [lp] + 10 000 russos "fuzz club session" [lp] 29 the telescopes "as light return" [cd] + the telescopes "stone tape" [12"] 30 hibushibire "freak out orgasm!" [lp]

31 kikagaku "moyo stone garden" 32 robedoor "new age sewage" [k7] 33 bill seaman "erasures & displacements" [cdx2] + bill seaman "the epiphanies" [cd] 34 bonnie 'prince' billy "wolf of the cosmos" [lp] + bonnie 'prince' billy "troubadour" [cd] + bonnie 'prince' billy "mama tried" [dl] + bonnie 'prince' billy & nathan salsburg "untitled" [7"] + bitchin bajas & bonnie 'prince' billy "live: cafe oto residency 22-24 march 2016" [dl] + bitchin bajas & bonnie 'prince' billy "live at 7th floor tokyo" [dl] 35 william basinski "a shadow in time" [lp]

36 olan mill "orient" [cd] 37 norman westberg "the chance to" [cd] + norman westberg "somewhere else" [cdr] + magic crystal dirt "moon star" [dl] (norman westberg & daughter ) 38 behind the shadowdrops "h a r m o n i c" [cd] + takaakira 'taka' goto "suliyaki - inori" [dl] 39 françois couturier & tarkovsky quartet "nuit blanche" [cd] 40 godspeed you! black emperor "luciferian towers" [cd]

41 lo carmen "lovers dreamers fighters" [lp] --- “sometimes it’s hard” single of the year !--- 42 hugo race & michelangelo russo "john lee hooker's world today" [cd] + catherine graindorge & hugo race "long distance operators" [cd] 43 lydia lunch & cypress grove "under the covers" [cd] 44 boris "dear" [cdx2] + boris "live at third man records" [12"] 45 totensonnen "winter solstice" [dl]

46 gravetemple "impassable fears" [lp] 47 aseethe "hopes of failure" [lp] 48 dhidalah "no water" [10"] 49 eola "hamamatsu" [k7] 50 giegue "psychedelic noise art" [dl] + giegue "les rallizes denudes flames of ice remix" [dl] + giegue "記憶は遠い/Memory is Far [hadaka no rallizes / 裸のラリーズ]" [dl]

... and hors série volume I: THE ANNUAL BOWERY ECLECTIC SELECTION

01 skullflower "the spirals of great harm" [cdx2] --- “yuggoth within” ! --- 02 skullflower "the black iron that fell from the stars..." [lp] 03 skullflower "wisdom of venom" [dl] 04 skullflower "dragons lair abyss" [dl] 05 skullflower "autumn cannibals" [dl] 06 skullflower "cicada domino effect [honeysuckle rose]" [dl] 07 skullflower "bayou perfume advert" [dl] 08 skullflower "penguin fringed abyss" [dl] 09 the yllustrous forger of dreams/skullflower "the 108" [dl] 10 the yllustrous forger of dreams "sweet little skunks" [dl] 11 the yllustrous forger of dreams "aries wolf" [dl] 12 the yllustrous forger of dreams "utter the weapons" [dl] 13 the yllustrous forger of dreams "clear seer" [dl] 14 the yllustrous forger of dreams "all my buttons" [dl] 15 the yllustrous forger of dreams "solstice" [dl] 16 the yllustrous forger of dreams "blues for algol" [dl] 17 the yllustrous forger of dreams "fireside angels" [dl] 18 the yllustrous forger of dreams "a bao a qu" [dl] 19 the yllustrous forger of dreams "burning swamp of pitch" [dl] 20 gyr [aka samantha davies] "fdhuafhusa" [dl]

(2017 long list continued after the break)

favourite gigs of the year:

01 up-tight @ les atelies claus "zennestraat 88 bxl" 20-11-2017

02 france @ les atelier claus “zennestraat 88 bxl” 20-11-2017

03 grand jojo "palce jeux des balles" 21-07-2017

most pleasing purchase of 2017:

finally managed to replace my battered copy of alien (frans lelieveld) “celebrating your victory” [12″] (1983)

belgian waffles continued their pioneering belgian punk archive series with:

and always a hit at our household:

most anticipated release of 2018-2019-20??:

still hoping that the good folk at http://blackmassrising.bigcartel.com can convince stephen o'malley to release sunn o)))’s “the moog ceremony live” tape from 06/04/06 @ the ab bxl … if anyone can it’s them. fingers crossed!

the many many reissues short list:

01 "tokyo flashback p.s.f. - psychedelic speed freaks" [cdx2] --- hideo ikeezumi gewidmet ---

02 witcyst "real folk- lathe cut singles 1993-1997" [cdx4] 03 "bingo! french punk exploitation 1978-1981" [lp] 04 "musica futurista nell'italia e nel mondo" [lpx2] 05 gate "hate" [1990 k7] [dl]

06 "paul major feel the music volume I" [lp/cd] 07 "even a tree can shed tears japanese folk & rock '69-'73" [cd] 08 pierre henry "polyphonies" [cdx12] 09 y pants "y pants" [1980] [12"] + y pants "beat it down" [1982] [lp] 10 "like nashville in naija" [lpx2] ex aequo "habibi funk: an eclectic selection of music from the arab world" [lpx2]

dop's preferred sex music of the year: "funky chimes belgian grooves from the 70's" [cdx2] ...

yeah, too much information, i know !

favourite bootlegs:

01 bardo pond "live @ knockdown center maspeth ny 010417" [dl] --- thanks to nyctaper ! ---

02 einstürzende neubauten "greatest hits tour 2017: live @ patronaat harlem 190117" [usb] + einstürzende neubauten "live @ elbphilharmonie hamburg 210117" [dl] + einstürzende neubauten "live @ boiler shop newcastle 050517" [usb] 03 nick cave & the bad seeds "live @ myer music bowl melbourne 270117" [dl] 04 doronko, rari wa, yoshino & kosugi "live @ earthdom '16-'17" [dl] 05 henry flynt "solo electric boogie @ issue 070417" [dl]

2017 summer hit:

mountain bike “good for nothing” from “too sorry for any sorrow” [lp]

and - of course ! - youpi youpi yeah “youpi youpi yeah” (2010)

favourite record sleeve:

. the dream dates “the mess etc” … STILL ! favourite radio:

brian turner on wfmu... unmatched !

favourite podcast:

01 baconface "global globules" @ resonance fm [dl]

http://www.baconfacecanada.com/global-globules/

02 global psychedelia "the suzuki junzo tribute" 231117 03 soma "acid quarry paris: the man in black" ex aequo the bug "killing sound chapter VII ambient riff" + the bug "killing sound chapter VI blue" 04 don letts & turtle bay "reggae 45" [x4] 05 david keenan "exemplars of regional madmenism the first 10" + david keenan related “bruce russell take over 240317″

favourite comedy of the year:

01a hans teeuwen “real rancour” (netflix) & 01b bridget christie “stand up for her” (netflix)

02a daniel kitson "the impotent fury of the privileged" [bandcamp] 02b tim fransen “het failliet van de moderne tijd” (vara) 03 taskmaster “series V” (dave) 04 richard herring “aiotm” (go faster stripe) 05 sofie hagen “shimmer shatter” (self-published)

still kudos to nextup comedy ! https://nextupcomedy.vhx.tv/browse

... plus the world needs way more lou sanders !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

favourite bilderstompf:

01 berlin babylon “staffel einz und zwei” [sky]

02 12 monkeys “season 3″ [syfy] & the expanse “season 2″ [syfy] 03 montalbano “season 11″ [rai] 04 giro d’italia [rai] & vuelta a espana [rtve] 05 het filosofisch kwintet “democratie” [omroephuman]

06 no offence “season 2 (& 1)” [4] 07 twin peaks “the return” [showtime] 08a queen of the south “season 2″ [usa network] 08b fortitude “season 2” [sky] 09 the end of the fucking world “season 1″ [4] 10 dark matter “season 3″ & killjoys “season 3″ [space]

& - with regards - nick cave “one more time with feeling [dvd]

and jcvd in “jean claude van johnson” (season I) of course!

favourite blog:

http://exileonmoanstreet.blogspot.com

and

http://noise-admiration.blogspot.com

particularly the jonty tiplady interview cf:

https://noise-admiration.blogspot.be/2017/10/the-interview-42017-jonty-tiplady.html

best interwebs:

www.ubuweb.com... a rare beacon of hope

. may your home be safe from tigers, x leroy

HNY & stay hungry!

16 late 2016 releases:

still to add (29-12-2017)

some late non 2016 releases:

01 anne la berge & joe williamson "the hum" (2014) [lp] 02 falling man "shine on" (2015) [10"] 03 ecstatic vision "sonic praise" (2015) [lp] 04 baron saturday baron saturday (2015) [dl] 05 hardworking families "happy days" (2015) [cdr]

... and hors série volume II: THE ANNUAL AIDEN BAKER BATCH

aidan baker "aberrations" [cdr] aidan baker "silent world" [k7] aidan baker & claire brentnall "delirious things" [cd] aidan baker & karen willems "landlos" [k7] aidan baker & karen willems "nonland" [lp] aidan baker "bsp live series 2017-10-21 paris" [dl] aidan baker "bsp live series 2017-10-25 [dl] aidan baker "bsp live series 2017-04-02 spektrum berlin" [dl] aidan baker x lärmschutz "heteroticisms volume IV" [k7] aidan baker, simon goff & thor harris "noplace"[dl] whisper room "ravvpovver" [k7] adoran "egregore [drone compendium six]" [dl] orchard "serendipity" [cd] werl hh 2016-09-08" [dl] baker, bloor & baker "terza rima II [drone compendium four]" [dl] caudal "live at 79sound" [dl] caudal "slope/land" [k7] nadja "stripped" [dl] whisper room "longjing [drone compendium five]" [dl]

the 2017 long list:

a sun amissa "the gatherer" [lp] aaron dilloway "switches" [lp] + aaron dilloway "the gag file" [lp] acid mothers temple & the melting paraiso ufo ft pika "astro infinity discothèque" [cd] + amt & melting paraiso ufo "those who came before" [cd] + amt & melting paraiso ufo "wandering the outerspace" [cd] aesop rock & homeboy sandman "triple fat lice" [12"] + aesop rock "hot dogs" [7"] + aesop rock "bushwick [ost]" [cd] af ursin “itinera” [lp] --- introducing once again an impressive batch of timo van luijk releases --- aging "suitable for the night" [k7] amenra "mass VI" [cd] + amenra & raketkanon "nachtschade bw bohr" [10"] antony milton "off/white" [lp] atv "negative, primitive b/w rebel proof glass" [7"] babe roots "babe roots" [lp] + babe roots ft ixm "dub sessions 1" [7"] "babylon berlin original movie soundtrack" [cd] ball "ball" [cd] baron saturday "concrete poetry" [k7] big blood "the daughters union" [cdr]

big/brave "ardor" [cd] brötzmann / leigh "sex tape" [cd] bruce russell "metallic ok" [cdx2] carlton melton "hidden lights" [12"] centralstödet / the myrrors "ljudkamrater" [lp] chino amobi "paradiso" [lpx2] + chino amobi "minor matter" [lp] chromesthetic "goldsound" [k7] + colin stetson "all this i do for glory" [cd] dan melchior "road not driving" [12"] david kirkland garner "dark holler" [dl] dead sea apes "central nervous system" [7"] + adam stone & dead sea apes "in the year 2039" [single-sided 12"] + dead sea apes "sixth side of the pentagon" [cd] demdike stare "cosmogony" [k7] + + demdike stare "circulation" [k7] diamanda galás "at saint thomas the apostle harlem" [cd] + diamanda galás "all the way" [cd] dino spiluttini "to be a beast" [lp] dodge meteor "real soon now" [k7] dope knife "nineteeneightyfour" [cd]

earth "live at third man records" [12"] elodie "balayes de la main du hasard" [lp] + elodie "vieux silence" [lp] evan caminiti "toxic city music" [lp] exploded view "summer came early" [12"] fabio orsi "il ricordo improvviso dell'assoluto stupore" [s-sided lp] félicia atkinson "hand in hand" [lpx2] föllakzoid ft j spaceman "london sessions" [12"] gad whip "in a room" [single-sided 12"] + gad whip "cartoon head" [ep/dl] + gad whip "trapped in a pinhole camera" [k7] ghostpoet "dark days & canapés" [cd] gnod "live at roadburn 2012" [lp & cd] + gnod "just say no to the psycho right-wing capitalist fascist industrial death machine" [lp] gunn - truscinski duo "bay head" [lp] hayley thompson-king "psychotic melancholia" [cd] henning christiansen "opus 67 strategygetarts: a symphony, hommage à richard demarco" [lp] hiiragi fukuda "happy birfday fuyusoubi" [dl & cdr] hills "alive at roadburn" [cd] ian william craig "slow vessels" [12"] + ian william craig & olivier alary "remixes" [dl] irma vep "no handshake blues" [cd]

irreversible entanglements "irreversible entanglements" [lp] jac berrocal, david fenech & vincent epplay "why" [7"] jo meares "lost gun" [ep] john zorn "the interpretation of dreams" [cd] + john zorn "the garden of earthly delights" [cd] + john zorn "here's no more firmament" [cd] + john zorn "midsummer moons" [cd] junko "junkoo)))" aka "junko/bergegas mati split" [k7] keiji haino megapack vol II - keiji haino & sumac "american dollar bill..." [lpx2] - keiji haino & john butcher "light never bright enough" [lp] - keiji haino, dumoulin & verbruggen "the miracles of only one thing" [cd] - konstrukt & keiji haino "a philosophy warping, little by little..." [lp] kiku ft blixa bargeld & black cracker "eng, düster und bang" [cd] korto "korto" [lp] krause "2am thoughts" [cdr] kungens män "bränna tid" [cdr] + kungens män "tomhetens furste" [k7] + kungens män "dag & natt" [cdx2] lee 'scratch' perry & subatomic sound system "super ape returns to conquer" [cd] leif ove andsnes "sibelius" [cd] leyland kirby "we, so tired of all the darkness in our lives" [dl] loren connors "angels that fall" [s-sided lp] luke & wendy "tony conrad" [7"] lumine "all the unnamed" [lp] --- timo van luijk ---

lure, burke, stinson & kramer "l.a.m.f. live at the bowery electric" [lp] marcia bassett & samara lubelski "live nyc" [lp] -mark lanegan band "gargoyle" [cd] + mark lanegan band "still life with roses: gargoyle remixes" [12"] + mark lanegan band "teatro kapital: live in madrid april 1 2012" [cd] + mark lanegan band "live at the abc glasgow april 21 2016" [cd] me and that man "songs of love and death" [cd] melting hand "live in europe 2016" [k7] moon duo "occult architecture vol I" [cd] + moon duo "occult architecture vol II" [cd] mountain bike "too sorry for any sorrow" [lp] mystery hearsay "where the latex meets the asphalt" [dl] obnox "niggative approach" [lp] oxbow "thin black duke" [cd] peter kris "dutch flat" [k7] --- “four-walled mural” !--- + peter kris "jacumba" [cdr] pigs pigs pigs pigs pigs pigs pigs "feed the rats" [lp] post-materialists ft electro-haram "secret eye dub" [dl] prettiest eyes "pools" [lp] private sorrow "fake lions" [k7] prurient "rainbow mirror" [cdx4] ramleh "procreation bw religion" [12"] --- ramleh's "discipline" ;) --- ray wylie hubbard "tell the devil i'm getting there as fast as i can" [cd] razorlegs "bloodshot" [k7]

richard skelton "towards a frontier" [cd] sammartano "rompighiaccio destiny" [s-sided k7] scanner "nomadic concrete" [dl] scott wollschleger "soft aberration" [cd] simon joyner "step into the earthquake" [cd] + simon joyner & david nance "last stand blues: live @ the barn deluxxe" [k7] sleaford mods "english tapas" [cd] sodastream "little by little" [lp] sophia "bad man (v2.0)" [dl] --- includes the armenia-like sample --- "sounds & pressure volume VII" [cd] spaceslug "mountains & reminiscence" [cd] + spaceslug "time travel dilemma" [cd] steve jansen "the extinct suite" [cd] strange broue "seance: the satanic sounds of strange broue" [lp] sundays & cybele "enter the time mirror" [k7] sunken "slab/floors" [lp & dl] sutcliffe jugend "nude and full of wounds" [cd] teho teardo & blixa bargeld "fall" [12"] --- blixa does neil young... hey hey my my ... --- tex, don, & charlie "you don't know lonely" [cd] the caretaker "everywhere at the end of time stage II" [lp] + the caretaker "everywhere at the end of time stage III" [lp] + the caretaker "take care, it's a desert out there" [cd] --- dedicated to mark fisher ! ---

the cosmic dead "psych is dead" [cd] + the cosmic dead "psych is live" [cdr] the fall "new facts emerge" [cd] the frightnrs "more to say versions" [lp] the liminanas "istanbul is sleepy" [12"] -the sonic shamen "tribute to lemmy" [lpx2] + the sonic shamen "jam with dave #1" [cd] the space spectrum "the dark side of the red eyed queen" [dl] + the space spectrum "drone jams vol II" [lp] those who walk away "the infected mass" [cd] thurston moore "rock n roll consciousness" [cd] tonstartssbandht "sorcerer" [lp] träd, gräs och stenar "tack för kaffet / so long" [cd] trouble "snake eyes bw mother's gone" [7"] --- son of twin peaks --- waylon jennings "new stuff" [lp] --- “a few decembers ago” --- white manna "bleeding eyes" [cd] william ryan fritch "behind the pale" [cd] wolf eyes "undertow" [cd] zaïmph "transverse presence" [k7] zbigniew karkowski "the last man in europe" [lp]

... lasciate ogni speranza ...

the even longer list (with added moments of brilliance):

a.r.c. soundtracks "dereliction/mirror" [cd] adderall canyonly & ak'chamel, the giver of illness "adderall canyonly & ak'chamel" [k7] alan vega "it" [lpx2] (2017) alexander hacke "irrlicht" [rio reiser] [dl] algiers "the underside of power" [cd] all them witches "sleeping through the war" [cd] alvarius b "with a beaker on the burner & an otter in the oven" [cdx2] + alvarius b & sir richard bishop "strange fruit" [10"] andrea porcu "schorre" [dl] angel dust "excavatum" [k7] appalachian yard art "total trash" [dl] + appalachian yard art "spacehelmethead" [dl] arbouretum "song of the rose" [cd] astrïd & rachel grimes "through the sparkle" [cd] aude romary & jérôme noetinger "discordes" [cd]

beaches "second of spring" [cd] ben bertrand "era/area live @ ateliers claus" [dl] ben frost "treshhold of faith" [12"] + ben frost "music from fortitude" [cd] betty bonifassi "lomax" [cd] bill orcutt "bill orcutt" [cd] billy woods "known unknowns" [cd] bison "you are not the ocean you are the patient" [cd] black thumb "you know it's true" [dl] + black thumb "therapeutic levels" [dl] bnnt "multiverse" [cd] body count "bloodlust" [cd] brian eno "reflection" [cd] brian reitzell "american gods [ost] [cd] brother ali "all the beauty in this world" [cd]

campbell kneale & thaniel ion lee "wormhole fallen sephira" [lathe 7"] + campbell kneale & uton "ravens of dispersion" [lathe 7"] cannibal "cannibal" [lp] career crooks "good luck with that" [k7] -celer "alcoves" [cd] + celer "in the end you'll just disappear" [cd] + celer "fragile that eventually breaks" [dl] causa sui "vibraciones doradas" [lp] + causa sui "live in copenhagen" [cdx3] chris forsyth & the solar band "dreaming in the non-dream" [lp] clarinette "the now of then" [lp] corky siegel's chamber blues "different voices" [cd] courtney marie andrews & bonnie 'prince' billy "i wish i knew how it would feel to be free" [dl] crème de hassan "technique & rite" [lp] crys cle & oren ambarchi "hotel record" [lpx2]

damo suzuki network "the swiftsure session" [lp] daniel lentz "river of 1000 streams" [cd] david keenan's this is memorial device related "sufferage tapes" [cdr] demian castellanos" ether" [lp & dl] dirt & space "ten million ways to die" [k7] dj caesar presents hus the kingpin "16 waves" [dl] + hus kingpin "cocaine beach" [lp] do make say think "stubborn persistent illusions" [cd] dog lady island "chopin" [lp] earthling society "zen bastard" [cdr] + earthling society "ascent to godhead/crooked under moonlight" [lp & cdr] eat lights become lights "nature reserve" [lp] electric moon "stardust rituals" [cd] emptyset "borders" [cd] + emptyset "skin" [12"] --- très remko scha !!! --- endless boogie "vibe killer" [cd] evan parker e.a. "reunion live from cafe oto" [cd] ex eye "ex eye" [cd] --- colin stetson related ---

falling man "ghost" [cd] --- dommage no more sam louwyck on vocals [vega] --- farflung "unwound cellular frown" [12"] --- you will kill for me --- faust "fresh air" [cd] firefriend "the black hole" [12"] flat worms "red hot sand" [7"] fred jannin "un bal" [dl] freek & de jonges "koffers" [cd] fret "over depth" [lpx2] gareth sager "88 tuned dreams" [lp] --- oblong malfunctions --- gates "viscera" [k7] + gates "deliverer/redeemer" [k7] gee tee "thugs in cars" [7"] + gee tee "death race" [dl] + gee tee "live 'n dangerous" [dl] gianni giublena rosacroce "crepusculo bw declino" [7"] girls pissing on girls pissing "songs of sodomy & the compost of aethyr" [cd] goat "goatfuzz bw goatfizz" [7"] + goat "fuzzed in europe (live)" [lp] goldfrapp "silver eye" --- because of systemagic --- grant evans "and the body beneath" [cdr] greg malcolm & stefan neville "a nuance" [dl] growing "disorder" [lp] gutter knife "demo" [k7]

hamsters "basically johnny moped bw freudian ships" [7"] heaters "fuzz club session" [lp] "hendrix in the spirit of jazz" [cd] hisato higuchi "kietsuzukeru echo" [lp] hope sandoval & the warm inventions "son of a lady" [10"] hotel wrecking city traders "passage to agartha" [lpx2] i-lp-o in dub "capital dub chapter 1" [lp] ignatz "coffee, no cigarettes" [k7] isis "live VII - 02.25.10" [lpx2] jah wobble "the usual suspects" [cdx2] +/- + jah wobble "get carer pressure sounds mixes" [dl] jarboe / father murphy "jarboe / father murphy" [10"] jefre cantu-ledesma "on the echoing green" [cd] + jefre cantu-ledesma "hermeneutics" [dl] jenny & jade "day release" [12"] jlin "black origami" [cd] john mcbain "accidental soundtracks vol I the alpha particle" [lp] + elk army "elk army" [dl] john mellencamp ft carlene carter "sad clowns & hillbillies" [cd] john murry "a short history of decay" [cd] john wiese "escaped language" [s-sided lp] jonwayne "rap album two" [cd] julien baker "funeral pyre bw distant solar systems" [7"]

kevin morby "city music" [cd] king krule "the ooz" [cd] kleistwahr "music for zeitgeist fighters" [lp] krautwerk "computerrock" [dl] kronos quartet "folk songs" [cd] laibach "also sprach zarathustra" [cd] langham research centre "tape works vol I" [cd] leandro fresco & rafael anton irisarri "la equidistancia" [lp] + leandro fresco & rafael anton irisarri "la espera" [10"] les filles de illighadad eghass malan" [lp] lichen gumbo "boilin'" [lp] lisa mezzacappa "avantnoir" [cd] little axe "london blues" [cd] lords of altamont "the wild sounds of lords of altamont" [cd]

manni dee "throbs of discontent" [12"] + manni dee "your public image" [12"] map 71 "gloriosa" [k7] mario batkovic "mario batkovic" [cd] marvin pontiac "the asylum tapes" [dl] --- aka john lurie --- mastodon "emperor of sand" [cd] + mastodon "cold dark place" [cd] melanie de biasio "lilies" [cd] melvins "a walk with love & death" [cdx2] mésange "heliotrope" [12"] michael morley "memorial gardens" [dl] michael vincent waller "trajectories" [cd] midnight mines "we are the primitives of a new era" [k7] milo "who told you to think ??!!?!?!?!" [cd] mojo presents murder ballads that inspired nick cave & the bad seeds (2017)° mono "live in melbourne" [cd] moses sumney "aromanticism" [cd] moths & locusts "intro / outro" [lp] motörhead "under cöver" [cd] mount eerie "a crow looked at me" [cd] mt. mountain "dust" [lp] myra davies w beate bartel & gudrun gut "sirens" [cd]

neil campbell & richard youngs "six scores" [lp] neville staple "return of judge roughneck" [cd] nick cave & warren ellis "war machine [ost]" [cd] + nick cave & warren ellis "wind river [ost]" [cd] + nick cave & warren ellis "mars [ost]" [cd] + warren ellis "gauguin [ost]" [cd] night loner "night loner I" [dl] + night loner "night loner II" [dl] no ufo's "nu lp for rs" [lp] noel akchoté "i shot the sheriff" [dl] noveller "a pink sunset for no one" [cd] øjerum "when birds fly, the eyes of heaven can rest" [lp] + øjerum "needle shaped silence" [cd] + øjerum "skygge" [cd] obnox "murder radio" [lp] oiseaux-tempête "al-'an الآن (and your night is your shadow - a fairy-tale piece...)" [cd] olan mill, leniad "cavade morlem leniad remodeled" [dl] oneida "live at secret project robot" [lpx2] + oneida "town crier bw golden age of the pariah" [7"] oulu space jam collective "holes of the universe" [dl]

our love will destroy the world "temptress factory chapels" [dl] + our love will destroy the world "second temptress factory chapels" [dl] + our love will destroy the world "thick dark number" [cdr] + our love will destroy the world "thinkpower" [k7] + our love will destroy the world & guilty c. "split" [k7] paul rooney "lucy over lancashire" [single-sided 12"] pauline paris [feat die kammer] "au lit" from "carousel" [cd] pere ubu "20 years in a montana missile silo" [cd] peter broderick "all together again" [cd] phurpa "gyud" [cd] pierre & bastien "musique grecque" [lp] pig//control "vor den mauern" [12"] pikacyu & makoto "galaxilympics" [cd] pistol disco "assault 2" [s-sided 7"] pool people "it's all any non rnglish language to me" [k7] porest "flimsy tombs" [k7] + porest & people like us "optimized!" [lp] pucker up "i live in your mouth" [k7]

radar men from the moon "subversive III de spelende mens" [dl] + radar men from the moon "fuzz club session" [12"] rafael anton irisarri "the shameless years" [dl] rakta "rakta at kexp" [k7] + rakta "oculto pelos seros" [7"] richard h kirk "dasein" [cd] richard pinhas "reverse" [cd] richard youngs "this is not a lament" [cdx2] + richard youngs "foot guitar vol I-IV" [dlx4] + richard youngs "brief walk outside" [dl] + richard youngs & simon wickham-smith "pulse of the rooster" [dl] robert turman "veiling reflections" [cd] roll the dice "born to ruin" [lp] run the jewels "mean demeanor" [cds] + run the jewels "down (z dot uk remix)" [dl] + run the jewels "panther like a panther (original demo version)" [dl] + danger mousse ft run the jewels & boi "the chase" [12"]

sachiko "jangala flamed with deep red" [cdr] scattered purgatory "sua-hiam-zun" [lp] sherwood & pinch "man vs sofa" [cd] six organs of admittance "burning the treshold" sophia "as we make our way the live recordings" [cdx3] sqürl "ep #260" [cd] + sqürl "paterson [ost]" [lp] stavesacre "mcmxcv" [dl] sundays & cybele "chaos & systems" [cd] superorganism "something for your m.i.n.d." [s-sided 7"] + superorgansm "it's all good bw nobody cares" [7"] sutcliffe jugend "shame" [cd] taiwan housing project "veblen death mask" [lp] tape loop orchestra "solar light emissions" [cdx2] + tape loop orchestra "held against the light" [cd] + tape loop orchestra "the 1915-16 panama pacific expo" [10"] temple ov bbv "temple ov bbv" [lp] tenhornedbeast "death has no companion" [cd]

the anarchy arias "the anarchy arias [deluxe]" [cdx2] the cult of dom keller "paradiso is on fire" [k7] the focus group "stop-motion happening with the focus groop" [cd] the lovely eggs "i shouldn't have said that bw melody for meathead" [7"] the myrrors "hasta la victoria" [cd] + the myrrors "archives vol I lunar halo" [k7] the necks "unfold" [lpx2] the tiger lillies "cold night in soho" [cd] + the tiger lillies "edgar allan poe's haunted palace" [cd] thisquietarmy "métamorphose" [cdx2] + "thisquietarmy "democracy of dust" [lp] + thisquietarmy & thank u for smoking "subsound split series #7" [12" & dl] timber timbre "sincerely, future pollution" [cd] timmy's organism "eating colors" [lp] + timmy's organism "lick up your town" [7"] + timmy's organism "revolution eyes" [7"] tom carter & robert horton "lonesome bootleg" [lp] touts "sickening & deplorable" [cdr] + touts "lit" [ep] + touts "sold out" [dl] "twin peaks music from the limited event series" [cd] - nin "she's gone away"! -

vatican shadow "luxor necropolitics" [10"x2] + vatican shadow "rubbish of the floodwaters" [10"] + vatican shadow & ancient methods "bunkerterror" [10"] vibracathedral orchestra "live at total inertia" [10"] video nasties "video nasties" [lp] + vintage cucumber "schnecke" [dl] + vintage cucumber "liebesbried" [dl] + vintage cucumber "abflug" [dl] violinbwoy ft junior dread "soundsystem" [10"] walker harris english "walker harris english" [k7] warm bodies "eat snot & rot!" [k7] weasel walter " a ound of flesh" [cdx4] william ryan fritch "birkitshi eagle hunters in a new world" [cd] + william ryan fritch & matt finey "a history in boxes" [dl] willy billy childish & ctmf "brand new cage" [cd] + willy billy childish & ctmf "in the devil's focus" [10"] + ctmf ft dear watson sound "brand new cadillac" [7"] wim mertens "nature's largess" [cdx2 & dvd] winter family "south from here" [cd] wolf eyes "no hate" [dl] youngs & meek "lullaby for lubieniecki" [k7] zahnfleisch "am bergen" [k7] zone six "forever hugo" [lp] zu "jhator" [lp]

... and - finally - the longest list:

"23 bangers! the casual lurkers guide to emotional response" [dl] a savage "thawing dawn" [lp] adult. "detroit house guests" [cd] akatombo "short fuse" [lp] alvarius b alvarius b vs abdel baqy byro in cairo [lp] amazone "amazone" [k7] anahita tourmaline [lp] andromeda space ritual "satellite" [dl] arrington de dionyso & ted byrnes "the ballot or the bullet" [k7] ash ra tempel experience "live in melbourne" [cd] ashtray navigations "insert genre gere" [cdr] + ashtray navigations "epson's bladder salts" [dl] avenir "nous ne sommes plus vierges et nous avons raté nos examens" [lp] --- noir --- b dolan ft jasiri x & bambu depistola "bannon" [dl] benedict drew crawling through tory slime [lp] beyt al tapes "you are now entering zimbabwe" [cd] bitchin bajas "bajas fresh" [lpx2] black cab "empire states" [dl] black merlin "proto world" [12"] "blade runner 2049 [ost]" [cd] blonde redhead "3 o'clock" [12"] blues pills "lady in gold live in paris" [cdx2] bob dylan "triplicate" [cdx3] + bob dylan "live in san diego" [cdx2] + bob dylan "under the covers" [cd] bobby bare "things change" [cd] böse "son of the connoisseur" [dl] + böse "knauben schnaucer" [dl] boss hog "brood x" [cd] brain damage & harrison stafford "liberation time" [cd] brix & the extricated "part 2" [cd] buck gooter "100 bells" [lp] c spencer yeh "the rca mark II" [lp] c.i.a. debutante "moly's cabinet" [k7] carla bruni "french touch" [cd] casey daniels band "bible on the dash" [cd] cavalier song "a deep well" [lp] + cavalier song & agathe max "cessna bw pagan" [7"] celer "plays liberace" [dl] + celer "ecco" [dl] + celer "vapour" [dl] chelsea wolfe "hiss spun" [cd] cheval rétréci, will guthrie & junko "cheval rétréci" [lp] chief keefe "thot breaker" [dl] + chief keef "two zero one seven" [dl] chiyoko szlavnics "during a lifetime" [cd] chris dooks "alpenoo" [dl] + chris dooks "long piece" [dl] circle "terminal" [cd] circuit des yeux "reaching for indigo" [cd] cleared "serpens" [cd] coldcut x on-u sound "outside the echochamber" [cd] colin vallon trio "danse" [cd] --- ook tinguely --- colour haze "in her garden" [cd] common eider, king eider "shrines for the unwanted, respite for the cast aside" [cd] conway "rejects on steroids" [cd] cosmic ground "cosmic ground live" [cd] courtney barnett & kurt vile "lotta sea lice" [lp] curvs "hauntropics" [cd] cyanide pills "sliced and diced" [cd] dalia raudonikyté with "solitarius" [dl] daniele luppi & parquet courts "milano" [cd] danielle de picciotto & sonae "leise fäden" [cd] david greenberger, glenn jones & chris corsano "an idea in everything" [10"x2] dead boys "still snotty: young, loud & snotty at 40" [cd] dead fucking serious "squalor" [dl] dead neanderthals "womb of god" [lp] + dead neanderthals "the depths" [cd] + dead neanderthals "craters" [cd] deutsch nepal & mama baer "klinik der praktischen vernunft" [lp] dire wolves "drumbar & basspear" [k7] dirk serries & martina verhoeven "innocent as virgin wood" [cd] + dirk serries & martina verhoeven "citadelic" [dl] dirty songs "play dirty songs" [lp] dodge meteor "real soon now" [k7] dreamdecay "yu" [lp] --- bass jam --- dub engine "psychosteppa" [dl] --- burn the amplifaya --- dustrider "event horizon" [cd] eberhard kranemann & harald grosskopf "krautwerk" [lp & cd] edgar wappenhalter "het spuit de oorgaten uit" [dl] electric wizard "wizard bloody wizard" [cd] eleh "home age" [lp] elko b "i bambini di basilisco" [cd] --- if only for cochon torrero" --- endless melancholy "the vacation" [cd] entrance "book of changes" [cd] erika stucky "papito" [cd] eriksson delcroix & sun sun sun orchestra "magic marker love" [cd] f ingers "awkwardly blissing out" [lp] feature "banishing ritual" [lp] feral ohms "feral ohms" [cd] fever ray "plunge" [dl] flat worms "flat worms" [cd] floris vanhoof "talking gongs" [cd] flowers must die 'kompost" [lp] foudre! "earth original soundtrack live at the church of saint-merri paris" [lp] four candles "killing the image" [dl] free dust "names for wind" [dl] --- [aka matthew sage] --- frozen planet... 1969 "electric smokehouse" [lp] + frozen planet... 1969 "from the centre of a parallel universe" [cd] fucked up "year of the snake" [s-sided 12"] full dub "the full tape" [dl] gabi losoncy "security besides love" [lp] + gabi losoncy "nobody's pushing you" [cdr] gary business "zero to clean" [dl] --- penderecki my ass!" gate "highway ghost" [12"] + gate "freedom ghosts" [dl] + gate "btylcs" [dl] gaute granli "animalskt" [lp] gewalt "tier bw so geht die geschichte" [7"] ghetto priest "every man for every man" [lp] gl harlev organ "bare spil noget orgel [the orgel sessions]" [lp] gnod "live at concrète" [k7] + gnod related dwellings & proximity sensor "ecc_bcn" [k7] + gnod related "famous moon king "light travels in straight lines" [k7] gnoomes "tschak!" [cd] godflesh "post self" [cd] grails "chalice hymnal" [cd] guerilla dub system "pound of dub" [dl] guerilla toss "gt ultra" [cd] gunwale "ceasing" [k7] hackedepicciotto "menetekel" [lpx2] havania whaal "elaborate minor crisis" [k7] heavy metal "smash criticism smash optimism smash arachnophobia" [dl] heaters "matterhorn" [lp] hecker "a script for machine synthesis" [cd] hersencellen "we ploeteren voort" [k7] hisko detria "mal du sciècle" [lp] hiss golden messenger "hallelujah anyhow" [cd] holy fuck "bird brains" [10"] holy monitor "holy monitor" [lp] honey "new moody judy" [lp] house & land "house & land" [cd] hypochristmutreefuzz "hypopotomonstrosesquipedaliophobia" [cd] ilk "glitterfish" [dl] --- richard youngs --- illiminine "#2" [cd] "illuminations [the new year 2017 free compilation]" [dl] impotentie "demonstratieve opnamens" [s-sided k7] in zaire "visions of the age to come" [lp] institute "subordination" [cd] irie nanara & raggattack "full of vibes" + irie nanara meets variedub "showcase" [dl] james holden & the animal spirits "the animal spirits" [cd] jamie saft, steve swallow, bob previte ft iggy pop "loneliness road" [cd] japan blues "sells his record collection" [lp] jarboe "as mind dissolves as song" [cd] jarvis cocker & chilly gonzales "room 29" [cd] jason isbell & the 400 unit "the nashville sound" [cd] jay glass dubs "endless-nameless" [k7] + jay glass dubs / guerilla toss "jay glass dubs vs guerilla toss" [k7] jeb loy nichols "country hustle" [cd] jessi colter "the psalms" [cd] jim o'rourke "steamroom 31" + jim o'rourke "steamroom 32" + jim o'rourke "steamroom 33" + jim o'rourke "steamroom 37" jim white "waffles, triangles & jesus" [cd] johnny moped "catatonic bw hard lovin' man" [7"] jon langford "four lost souls" [cd] josy & the pony vs the poneymen "hippodrone club" [cd] julian cope "drunken songs" [cd] julianna barwick & rafael anton irisarri "thesis 10" [10"] junior natural and sly & robbie "miltant" [cd] kairon; irse! "ruination" [cd] kaitlyn aurelia smith "the kid" [cd] kara-lis coverdale "grafts" [s-sided 12"] kassel jaeger, jim o'rourke "wakes on cerulean" [lp] kate carr "the story surrounds us" [k7] kaz mirblouk "sidesteps bw paint stains" [7"] khaki blazer "heaven is tacky" [dl] + khaki blazer "didn't have to cut" [k7] king chubby "demo" [k7] king gizzard & the lizard wizard "polygondwanaland" [cd] klein "tommy" [12"] kohn "kreis plön" [cd] konrad sprenger "stack music" [lp] kraus "grip the moon" [k7] l'amour est un os" [dl] --- la nòviarlt "tu m'as encore crevé un cheval" --- l'ira del baccano "paradox hourglass" [cd] la chasse "noir plus noir que le noir" [lp] la tène "tardive / issime" [lp] lärmschutz & sietse singers "requiems" [k7] larkin grimm "chasing an illusion" [lp] lawrence english "cruel optimism" [cd] leaaves "first sickness" [k7] leather jacuzzi "slander, lies & soda" [k7] lee ranaldo "electric trim" [cd] left lane cruiser "claw machine wizard" [cd] les chants du hasard "les chants du hasard" [cd] les discrets "prédateurs" [cd] life stinks "hanging from the ceiling" [7"] linda catlin smith - apartment house & quatuor bozzini "drifter" [cdx2] linecraft "the man who was plugged in" [k7] [2008] lorette meets the obsolete "the sound of all things" [7"] luna "a sentimental education" [cd] + luna "a place of greater safety" [10"] + luna & cheval sombre "play the vu's lonesome cowboy bill" [7"] lustmord "maschinenfest" [cd] mach hommy "dump gawd hommy edition" [cd] + mach hommy machinefabriek "snoepgoed" [7"] mad professor meets jah9 "in the midst of the storm" [lp] magnet "feel your fire" [cd] make-overs "learning curve bw time warp" [7"] male gaze "miss taken" [cd] mark mcguire "ideas of beginnings" [lp] mark so "and suddenly from all this there came some horrid music" [cdr] martin rev "demolition 9" [cd] mary ocher "faust studio sessions & other recordings" [10"] matthew edwards & the unfortunates "folklore" [cdr] maurizio bianchi "the second death" [cdr] + maurizio bianchi & abul mogard "nervous hydra bw all this has passed forever" [dl] michael begg/mélenchon brève "one true vine" [cd] michel banabila, eric vloeimans, mehmet polat "new land" [dl] mike "may god bless your hustle" [dl] mikey young "your move vol I" [lp] + mikey young "you feelin' me?" [k7] moebius "musik für metropolis" [cd] mogwai "every country's sun" [cd] monkey marc "post traumatic dub bw deception dub" [7"] mozart "nasty" [7"] mr zèbre & sensi t "travelling on the riddim" [7"] mutation III "dark black" [cd] mythic sunship "land between the rivers" [cd] naaahhh "themes" [12"] nhung nguyen "an ordinary narrative" [dl] + nhung nguyen & sleep orchestra "disparate (piano day 2017)" [dl] nik turner "life in space" [cd] novi_sad "wound burner" [cd] nurse with wound "kafka's parachute" [3"cd] øjerum "træerne & intetheden I-II" [lathe 7"] + øjerum "træerne & intetheden III-IV" [lathe 7"] + øjerum "træerne & intetheden V-VI" [lathe 7"] + øjerum "træerne & intetheden VII-VIII" [lathe 7"] + øjerum "træerne & intetheden IX-X" [lathe 7"] + øjerum "træerne & intetheden XI-XII" [lathe 7"] old 97's "graveyard whistling" [cd] omit "negative pulse logic" [k7] oneohtrix point never "good time [ost]" [cd] shiri pen penz "crystal body" [cd] oulu space jam collective "deep harpalonia" [dl] + oulu space jam collective "strike of the death anvil" [dl] p.o.s. "chill, dummy" [cd] paul kelly "life is fine" [cd] "pauline oliveros tribute the last sense to leave us" [cdr] pelt + mike & care gangloff with matt payton "split" [10"] penguin cafe "the imperfect sea" [lp] "penny rimbaud's kernschmelze II cantata for improvised voice" [cd] peter fengler "vegetarians" [single sided 7"] peter perrett "how the west was won" [cd] phew "light sleep" [lp] pia fraus "field ceremony" [cd] piano magic "closure" [cd] pickin' on nirvana [lp] pierre bastien "the mecanocentric worlds of pierre bastien (live)" [lp] + pierre bastien & eddie ladoire "phantoms" [lp] pink void "pink void" [k7] pool people "i should have said swearwords" [k7] + pool people "show 07 - show 12" [dl's] poulainjar "cabaret sous mondain en public" [lp] prayer "prayer I & II" [k7] + prayer "seeing" [dl] prostitutes "dance tracksz" [lp] protomartyr "relatives in descent" [cd] public enemy "nothing is quick in the desert" [dl] public psyche "no new violence" [lp] purling hiss "breeze [ep]" [dl] quindar "hip mobility" [lp] r.l. boyce "roll and tumble" [cd] raxola "guts out" [lp] razen "the xvoto reels" [cd] "resistance radio the man in the high castle [ost]" [cd] richard chartier "removed" [cd] richard youngs "cavalcades" [cdr] + richard youngs "lovey uou 343 virtual box" [dl] richie wohlfeil "east bound and down bw along the cosmic wheel" [dl] + richie wohlfeil "belle island demos [dl] ricky koole with ocobar "ricky koole with ocobar" [lp] riddim research lab "research program #1" [lp] ride "weather diaries" [cd] rimjob texas "proljev" [dl] rkss "brostep in the style of florian hecker" [dl] robert plant "carry fire" [cd] robyn hitchcock "robyn hitchcock" [cd] robyn ludwick "this tall to ride" [lp] roll the dice "born to ruin" [lp] roméo elvis et le motel "morale 2" [cd] salad boys "giving compliments to strangers" [k7] scanner "the great crater" [cd] schakalens bror "truck cabin fever" [k7] sex scheme "live 11-01-2017" [dl] + sex scheme "show at the glove 18-03-2017" [dl] shit & shine "total shit" [lp] + shit & shine "some people really know how to live" [lp] + shit & shine "musica lavapiatta" [k7] + shit & shine "that's enough" [dl] + shit & shine "hamburger" [12"] simon fisher turner "picture from darkness" [cd] + simon fisher turner "giraffe" [lp] slowdive "slowdive" [cd] sly & the family drone + the dead neanderthals "molar wrench" [lp] sneaks "it's a myth" [cd] snowdrops "live at the archaelogical crypt paris" [dl] songs: ohia "live at wobc oct 12, 1994" [lp] sophie cooper & julie bradley "the blow volume III3 [K7] soul sugar "chase the light" [cd] space debris "behind the gate" [cdx2] spain "live at the love song" [cd] + spain "spider room los angeles 24-11-1996" [dl] + spain "live at love song 07-02-2017" [dl] + spain "love song one year anniversary show 25-05-2017" [dl] spray paint & ben mackie "get legless" [7"] + spray paint "live at third man" [7"] steeden mustik "steeden mustik" [dl] stefan neville & the doll "1974" [8" lathe cut] + hermione johnson, ben holmes & stefan neville "02.10.16" [ep] sterile garden "live at the apohadion 11/27/17" [dl] stratocastors "autre regard" [k7] stupid cosmonaut "algol" [lp] + stupid cosmonaut "state of the universe" [dl] + stupid cosmonaut / boobs of doom "signals from a dying star / vibrations from a dying soul" [dl] sula bassana "organ accumulator" [cd] + sula bassana "the ape regards his tail" [cd] talweg "est in chemin, loin en sombre" [lp] tamino "tamino" [10"] tarotplane "358 oblique" [lp] tengger cavalry "die on my ride" [cd] the afghan whigs "in spades" [cd] the belligerents "science fiction" [lp] the black angels "death song" [cd] the black seeds "fabric" [cd] the bug "bad bw get out the way" [12"] the comet is coming "death to the planet" [12"] the contributors "the contributors" [lp] --- dan melchior & spray paint --- the duke spirit "sky is mine" [cd] the galileo 7 "tear your minds wide open!" [cd] the guru guru "p chew" [cd] the hacker "le théâtre des opérations" [12"x2] the janitors "horn ur marken" [cd] the master musicians of jajouka ft material "apocalypse live" [dl] the oscillation "evil in the tree" [7"] + the oscillation "dissorted tracks [dl]" + the oscillation "from tomorrow [blue sun ambient mix]" [dl] the professionals "what in the world" [cd] the spunks "trips into a tray of plaster & arises as a ghost" [dl] the stroppies "the stroppies" [k7] the tenses & bren't lewiis ensemble "daughter of the boot" [cdr] "there is no music in china" [k7] thomas dimuzio & alan courtis "monk style or scream" [lp] thor & friends "the subversive nature of kindness" [cd] thor harris & friends and woven skull "triangles bw the cracking of the limbs" [7"] tindersticks w thomas belhom & christine ott minute bodies the intimate world of f percy smith" [cd/dvd] tom russell "folk hotel" [cd] tomaga "greetings from the bitter end" [12"] tony bevan & richard youngs "the two monarchs live at the hairdressers" [dl] trio da kali & kronos quartet "ladilikan" [cd] trust "live hellfest 2017" [cd & dvd] "turn on, tune in [lullabies for insomniacs]" [lp] ty segall "ty segall" [lp] ubek "ubek" [k7] umberto echo "oneness in dub" [dl] unearthly trance "stalking the ghost" [cd] uniform "wake in fright" [cd] united waters "the narrows" [lp] unsane "fix it bw wrung" [7"] upper wilds "guitar module 2017" [lp] urarv "aurum" [cd] usa-mexico "laredo" [lp] --- shit & shine related --- uuuu "uuuu" [lpx2] vandoliers "the native" [lp] varg "nordic flora seies pt III gore-tex city" [lpx2] + varg "i'll hold you till we die" [12"] venom "100 miles to hell [ep]" [dl] verbraak van bijnen "2nd line city" [cd] vintage cucumber "abu abu" [dl] + vintage cucumber "arabische nächte" [dl] violinbwoy "død" [12"x3] warm digits "wireless world" [lp] whit dickey, mat maneri, matthew shipp "vessel in orbit" [cd] white hills "stop mute defeat" [cd] wiegedood "de doden hebben het goed II" [cd] will guthrie "people pleaser" [cd] wire "silver/lead" [cd] wolf alice "visions of a life" [cd] wooden wand "clipper ship" [cd] + wooden wand "toth's law" [dl] + wooden wand "toth's law volume II" [dl] + wooden wand "toth's law volume III" [dl] woopheadclrms "meeting room + rare plants" [dl] wrongtom meets the ragga twins "in dub" [dl] wu-tang clan "the saga continues" [cd] xiu xiu "forget" [cd] xordox neospection" [cd] yabby you "mighty counselor" [12"] zwangere guy "zwangerschapsverlof vol III" [cd] zeitkratzer "duft" [lp] +/- + zeitkratzer "performs songs from kraftwerk & kraftwerk II" [cd] + zeitkratzer & elliott sharp "oneirika live at berghain berlin" [cd] zeroh "kurost.blqlordtesla" [dl]

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